trans | (no subject)

I was just reading over my conversation with Sam from last night/this morning, and the part where he was talking about how "I haven't gone as far as he has" in terms of being trans or whatever, that kinda jabbed at me, like here I was afraid that I wasn't "legit enough" to fit in with other trannies, and here it is, happening. Supposedly I "haven't suffered" like he has or whatever. Fuck that. Why am I any less legitimate?? Just cuz my whole family doesn't hate me or just because I don't have a "dick" and get people to call refer to me constantly using male pronouns??? If I was even out to my whole family, I'm sure that the majority of them would dissassociate themselves from me due solely to my being transgender, and the remaining bunch would just be awkward around me and be confused about me for the rest of their lives, no matter how many times or different ways I tried to explain myself. For everyone's information, for anyone else who is thinking of criticizing me and my gender perception, thinking I'm "invalid" or whatever, Fuck You. I'm suffering and have been doing so for as long as I can remember. Just because no one seems to notice or care, doesn't mean it isn't there.