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trans2011-12-16 11:09 am
cristean.livejournal.com) wrote in trans2011-12-16 11:09 am
6 months....
It's been 6 months now since I admitted to myself what I need to do and began my transition...it's been slow...but I've been living as a man now for that 6 months, Therapy has begun again and next month I have the appointment to begin on the hormones. I'm packing, and wearing a binder on a regular basis. I dress, and wear a more masculine hair cut.
My friends are doing their best to use the proper pronouns. My family at least those I am close to are accepting of this change in my way of living. I lost my job, though they claim it was for another reason, there is no proof of my doing what they said I did. So my thoughts and those of many others is that it was because I came out in my transition.
It still angers me that they would do such, but I can't prove that this is why I was fired. So I have come to the thought that ok, I can be out to friends, family, but with an employer I need to keep things quiet until the change is complete....name...gender markers...physical appearance.
A part of me wants to just snap my fingers and make the change complete...admitting it was such a leap on my part...and now the wait is like being in labor for 20 hours and the baby still not being born. I think one of the things that makes it the hardest is that there are times in public I am seen as male. Just not all the time.
Peace...
c
My friends are doing their best to use the proper pronouns. My family at least those I am close to are accepting of this change in my way of living. I lost my job, though they claim it was for another reason, there is no proof of my doing what they said I did. So my thoughts and those of many others is that it was because I came out in my transition.
It still angers me that they would do such, but I can't prove that this is why I was fired. So I have come to the thought that ok, I can be out to friends, family, but with an employer I need to keep things quiet until the change is complete....name...gender markers...physical appearance.
A part of me wants to just snap my fingers and make the change complete...admitting it was such a leap on my part...and now the wait is like being in labor for 20 hours and the baby still not being born. I think one of the things that makes it the hardest is that there are times in public I am seen as male. Just not all the time.
Peace...
c