ext_190584 ([identity profile] starlights.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] trans2004-03-20 04:42 pm

Sigh.. -_-

My parents are frustrating me. I recently explained to them that I am MtF and everything.. And their basic response was that it's unnatural, I'm going against God's will, and I need psychological help. I tried explaining that maybe God made me this way for a reason. So I could learn certain things from a life like this, but now it was time for me to move on and be happy. But no.. They won't accept that.

They are constantly and repeatedly bothering me about this. They won't leave me alone and will not accept that I have felt this way since I was child and have only been afraid to tell them. They want to blame it on something. Either themselves, or my ex girlfriend (who I was with to make them happy), etc. Whatever keeps it from being something that would be at all normal for me.

And now, my father says that if I go through with this, I will have no future in the profession I wish to pursue. I am going to start training to work in real estate, as it's the family business.. but he says I will not be able - or allowed - to be a part of it if I go through with the transition. He says it just won't look right. And it's not acceptable..

I really don't know what to do, here. Has anyone else had really difficult family problems like this? If so, what did you do? Did they ever finally accept things?

I'm just so frustrated right now and don't know what to do. I want to have a future and I want to be successful, but I also want to be happy and comfortable with who I am. I don't think it's too much to ask to have both.. is it?