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trans2004-04-15 03:02 am
effeteifrit.livejournal.com) wrote in trans2004-04-15 03:02 am
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What is it like when you are male but you're a feminine male? And when you transition from being a feminine male in a female body to being a feminine male in a male (or masculinized) body?
What changes? What's it like?
I was commenting on someone's post earlier tonight about a kid in Australia who's transitioning before he gets into high school. Then I started thinking about what my life would be like now if I had transitioned as I wanted to, then.
I was also posting earlier on something else, as I'm questioning whether or not I have dissociative identities. And it came up, for me at least, that what I was describing were like two halves or polarities of a whole person, and they were both male. (It's easier for me to recognize myself as male when I think that it's not 'me', the 'me' in question speaking from a transgender female standpoint.)
Then I was thinking about someone I haven't seen in a long time who transitioned when he was 24. I'm 22. In two years, I very well might transition.
So I'm posting to ask what it's like if you start out transgender or genderqueer and you visibly 'mix genders' as female--what happens different when you're seen as male? Obviously there's the skirt issue--things I get away with under the radar now I won't be able to if I looked male. My voice will drop--I want my voice to drop. I'll be tiny--I don't want to be tiny but I have no choice.
Also welcome are comments by people who were born male and have lived with their femininity for a long time. I don't know if it's illusory or not, but I feel a kinship with people who have been born and raised male and are somewhat feminine...because I see that to be kind of my situation (not entirely, of course) except that I'm in a female body, and I have a male identity.
I was allowed to be masculine growing up and I think I turned out androgyne. I suppose school was the hard part. I know I've gotten out of at least a few beatings and fights because I look female (especially since part of me has "little guy syndrome" and wants to act tough, even though my body is small and weak). So I'm wondering ...well, kind of wondering what your experience is, and wondering what it's like...so I know what I'm getting into.
(by the way, I'm bisexual and more often attracted to males than females...)
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What changes? What's it like?
I was commenting on someone's post earlier tonight about a kid in Australia who's transitioning before he gets into high school. Then I started thinking about what my life would be like now if I had transitioned as I wanted to, then.
I was also posting earlier on something else, as I'm questioning whether or not I have dissociative identities. And it came up, for me at least, that what I was describing were like two halves or polarities of a whole person, and they were both male. (It's easier for me to recognize myself as male when I think that it's not 'me', the 'me' in question speaking from a transgender female standpoint.)
Then I was thinking about someone I haven't seen in a long time who transitioned when he was 24. I'm 22. In two years, I very well might transition.
So I'm posting to ask what it's like if you start out transgender or genderqueer and you visibly 'mix genders' as female--what happens different when you're seen as male? Obviously there's the skirt issue--things I get away with under the radar now I won't be able to if I looked male. My voice will drop--I want my voice to drop. I'll be tiny--I don't want to be tiny but I have no choice.
Also welcome are comments by people who were born male and have lived with their femininity for a long time. I don't know if it's illusory or not, but I feel a kinship with people who have been born and raised male and are somewhat feminine...because I see that to be kind of my situation (not entirely, of course) except that I'm in a female body, and I have a male identity.
I was allowed to be masculine growing up and I think I turned out androgyne. I suppose school was the hard part. I know I've gotten out of at least a few beatings and fights because I look female (especially since part of me has "little guy syndrome" and wants to act tough, even though my body is small and weak). So I'm wondering ...well, kind of wondering what your experience is, and wondering what it's like...so I know what I'm getting into.
(by the way, I'm bisexual and more often attracted to males than females...)
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transgender, queeredbodies, queerpoc, trans_poc bayarea_ftm, _hmm, and to my personal journal.Thank you, thank you, thank you so much!!! [yes I'm still a guy ;)] It means a lot to me.