http://teichan.livejournal.com/ (![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
teichan.livejournal.com) wrote in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
trans2004-11-12 10:10 am
teichan.livejournal.com) wrote in trans2004-11-12 10:10 am
"Mom, I am your daughter!" "Noooooo...." *falls.*
I'm a little bit hyper right now, but I did mean to crosspost this sometime or another, so. . let's try this again.
If you remember or not, in September I mentioned trying to find a job and such. Well, last week I actually started working at a bookstore. Fun times. ^^ Of course, I asked the manager a bit subtly if there'd be any "gender problems," and she took it as well as you'd expect someone that has known you for a few days. Otherwise, I've never had a gender hicup - whether customers or employees, everyone sees me as a girl - and sometimes more; i.e. a cute girl. oo;
Except for my mom and little brother. ~~ I was a bit hesitant to tell my mom that I got the job, worrying that she might try and find a way to "visit" me while I'm working. . but even after those worries, I figure that her finding out on her own would be better than nothing. But worse than me telling her.
I dunno. . now that I have a source of money, I can probably start hormones. . given I can find a doctor that'll prescribe them to me without a therapist. And really, beyond trying to come out to my mom, I don't see a need for a therapist. I know who I am, I know what I want, and my confidence couldn't be any better. So how could they help. . ? ( Plus, the last time I went to a therapist - back in April '03 - the first day I said I wanted to start hormones. Not exactly subtle. . )
Plus, I want to find a way to tell her, while screeching past the "my other mother ( for lack of a better term ) used to be married to my mom and had a sex change that didn't influence my life's decisions in any way" issue, which isn't easy since I don't know of a single person that's had a trans parent, nor a trans parent that didn't play a large roll in their development. So it's very confusing. .
So. . yeah. Beyond saving money for hormones, eventual hair removal, and future bus pases there isn't much else I can see buying. . but I don't have health insurance, which doesn't help either. XD
And it's confusing dealing with this all on my own. .
So! What exactly can I do? Go back to therapy again? Try and find a doctor? Come out on my own? Continue the internal screaming fit? >>;
( And yes, I do know about The Center here in San Diego. . that's the place I went to before. Which, after I get my half-month pass on the 15th, I'll see about visiting when I'm not working. )
Thanks in advance. .
Ally.
If you remember or not, in September I mentioned trying to find a job and such. Well, last week I actually started working at a bookstore. Fun times. ^^ Of course, I asked the manager a bit subtly if there'd be any "gender problems," and she took it as well as you'd expect someone that has known you for a few days. Otherwise, I've never had a gender hicup - whether customers or employees, everyone sees me as a girl - and sometimes more; i.e. a cute girl. oo;
Except for my mom and little brother. ~~ I was a bit hesitant to tell my mom that I got the job, worrying that she might try and find a way to "visit" me while I'm working. . but even after those worries, I figure that her finding out on her own would be better than nothing. But worse than me telling her.
I dunno. . now that I have a source of money, I can probably start hormones. . given I can find a doctor that'll prescribe them to me without a therapist. And really, beyond trying to come out to my mom, I don't see a need for a therapist. I know who I am, I know what I want, and my confidence couldn't be any better. So how could they help. . ? ( Plus, the last time I went to a therapist - back in April '03 - the first day I said I wanted to start hormones. Not exactly subtle. . )
Plus, I want to find a way to tell her, while screeching past the "my other mother ( for lack of a better term ) used to be married to my mom and had a sex change that didn't influence my life's decisions in any way" issue, which isn't easy since I don't know of a single person that's had a trans parent, nor a trans parent that didn't play a large roll in their development. So it's very confusing. .
So. . yeah. Beyond saving money for hormones, eventual hair removal, and future bus pases there isn't much else I can see buying. . but I don't have health insurance, which doesn't help either. XD
And it's confusing dealing with this all on my own. .
So! What exactly can I do? Go back to therapy again? Try and find a doctor? Come out on my own? Continue the internal screaming fit? >>;
( And yes, I do know about The Center here in San Diego. . that's the place I went to before. Which, after I get my half-month pass on the 15th, I'll see about visiting when I'm not working. )
Thanks in advance. .
Ally.