trans | a few questions

A) does anyone have torrents for transgeneration?
B) Does anyone know anything about transamerica (aka when it's comming out)

As for other things. Well, I'm still in translimbo. I've told most of my friends again, and I'm just trying to work up the courage to tell my parents. I'm hopefully going to a new university, and I've gone out as Jessica. I just don't know what to do next. Well, I know... I have to find a councelor and start transitioning. I think. As always I feel stressed and worried that I'm making a bad choice. I don't know.

Hopefully I can get my act together... before I leave university and find a new group of friends. Last time I changed my friends, I repressed being trans for 3 years. I almost thought I was "over it" like it was some phase. Luckily I didn't throw my clothes away... because I then realized that it wasn't a phase. But, I know if I don't do anything, like last time, I'll just ignore it until it bothers me too much.

Sorry, I'm rambling again.
-Jessica