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I've been desperately trying to really transition for quite a while now. I've been living full time on my own for over a year now. I go to school as a guy, I go to work as a guy, and my name is legally changed. I saw a therapist for several months, and she was going to recommend T but there was an accident involving my girlfriend and we lost our car for a while. Then she (the therapist) was suddenly impossible to reach. So I found a new therapist who had never worked with transpeople before but said she was willing to learn. She got a copy of the Harry Benjamen standards and said that she figured I'd pretty much met them seeing that I'd done a real life experience for over a year now. I saw her for a few months and she was ready to recommend me for T.

However, last week (after she said she's written the letter and I have a doctors appointment with an endo tomorrow who she's already had some contact with I believe)she started talking to this other therapist who told her that I needed to do some sort of personality tests before she should write the letter. Now she says that she's discovered that this is a process and she thinks I'm moving too fast and she was to delay writing the letter indefinitely.

I understand that transitioning is a process, but I know I've gone above and beyond the standards for what I should have to do. Do any of you guys think that the endo might proceed without the therapist since he and my other doctor have already been in contact with the therapist? It's pretty much too late for me to cancel, and I don't want to cancel. What should I do....?

Crossposted: ftm transgender _ftm_