trans | (no subject)

i just recently came out in my livejournal, i think thats as close as i will come to admitting im a f-m trans. I was hoping admitting it would make me feel better, but i feel worse and deleted the entry, even though all my friends were kind and accepting. I feel sick just thinking about it now, and I dont think im ever going to be able to tell anyone i really know or act on it in public/social situations. has anyone else ever felt so repressed it made them physically sick? if so how did you cope with it? A friend tried aiming me about it, and only said a few lines, and I have been sick for an hour. A nervous sort of feeling.

and and hi, this is my hello post (: