Relief

[serielle.livejournal.com]

I had a long conversation with my best friend yesterday, in which I finally told him about my transgenderism. I had expected for him to be open minded, but it would still be quite a shock to him. I went a lot better than that :)


After everything was said, he told me that it's really not all that of a surprise to him, from the fact that I was never too crazy about my body image and "the way you acted". It didn't surprise him that I was transgendered, though he did say that he was surprised it was severe enough for me to be seeking a sex change.

In the end though, he said that while he can't think of me as female, he doesn't think of me any differently than he did before, and that I'm still the same person in his eyes.

He's the second person I told so far. The first was my girlfrien, who has been more than supportive through the whole ordeal, and now him. I guess I'm lucky in who I ended up surrounding myself with :)

Now I only hope my mother would react in the same manner.

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[ex-milk447.livejournal.com]

i just recently came out in my livejournal, i think thats as close as i will come to admitting im a f-m trans. I was hoping admitting it would make me feel better, but i feel worse and deleted the entry, even though all my friends were kind and accepting. I feel sick just thinking about it now, and I dont think im ever going to be able to tell anyone i really know or act on it in public/social situations. has anyone else ever felt so repressed it made them physically sick? if so how did you cope with it? A friend tried aiming me about it, and only said a few lines, and I have been sick for an hour. A nervous sort of feeling.

and and hi, this is my hello post (: