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trans2004-10-27 11:19 pm
anne78.livejournal.com) wrote in trans2004-10-27 11:19 pm
A pondering...
Ok, I have been full time now for... thinks... well it must be about 6 months and I know I pass. But I have noticed something curious has been happening lately.
When people call me Anne, Ma'am or use feminine pronouns, I am no longer happy they are getting it "right" but instead it feels wrong! When my parents accidentally call me by my old name or use male pronouns it annoys me as I know it is wrong. But at the same time it feels right! (If that makes sense)
Is this just normal? Do I just have to get used to hearing a name and references to me different from the ones I have heard for the past 25 years? Or is it my mind telling me I'm not really TS!
Mind you, if I'm not TS I'm not detransitioning! I would much prefer to be a female and it to feel weird being called "Miss" than I would pretending to be male again! lol
When people call me Anne, Ma'am or use feminine pronouns, I am no longer happy they are getting it "right" but instead it feels wrong! When my parents accidentally call me by my old name or use male pronouns it annoys me as I know it is wrong. But at the same time it feels right! (If that makes sense)
Is this just normal? Do I just have to get used to hearing a name and references to me different from the ones I have heard for the past 25 years? Or is it my mind telling me I'm not really TS!
Mind you, if I'm not TS I'm not detransitioning! I would much prefer to be a female and it to feel weird being called "Miss" than I would pretending to be male again! lol