oh the wonderful life of a girl like me

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ello,

i just want to tell my story because i know its just a road bump that WE ALL Face, but it helps to write it out so i dont let the feelings bubble inside of me cause im realy good at faking happieness and bottle-ing up feelings:

i am a trans-girl, i like other girls alot, most other girls just see me as gay, or a just plain boy, heres where my problem comes to a head, i just had a girlfriend, for a day, i know sounds so elementary school like, but its the painful truth. this girl, knew that i was 'gay', and 'that i wanted to be a girl' she knew this upfrount, and i have loved this girl for years, years onto of years...i still love her.

anyways,

she called me today, saying that she was confused about me, and how i want to be a girl because, she was bi-sexual at one time, but she realized that she doesnt want to be in a relationship with a girl...do you see where this is going?

so due to the fact that she is neather bi, nor gay, being in an relastionship with me, would be hard on her and me, which i agree with, but she has not giving our relationship time to work through those problems.

anyways

its the painful life of being trans, some day some one will love me, and see im beautiful....hopefully...

XOXO
Vanessa Marie