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[sekoumoja.livejournal.com]

Heh. I just got a christmas card from my grandmother and grandfather. It goes:

"Dear Matt,
*begin printed text*
I hope you have a Christmas day that's nice as it can be, because you're reallywonderful and mean so much to me! Merry Christmas with love!
*end printed text*
XXOO
Grandma Lory and Grandpa Joe

P.S. Keep the faith, Matt - don't go off the "deep end" you are -wiser- but not very smart in choosing what is -good- for your future.

*opposite side*

P.S.S. I'm encouraging you and your mom to move out of that "rat-race" San Diego area to Lake Tahoe areawhere there's alot more promise for your furture and hers.

You are a young -Man- -- not a young woman!
It's OK to "play-act" -on stage- --
your god-given talents are many, Matt. Don't waste them on trying to become something your not! It's -normal- at your age to have "feelings" your trying to figure out but, believe me, grandson, you are growing into a -fine- yound 18 year old -Man-!!

Love you so much!"


... *sigh* A nice Christmas card, isn't it? I understand that they don't really support me. But could they even talk to me? The only thing they've heard is from my mom. And I'm fairly sure my mom's version is biased - railing, even, against me.

Urgh.

oh the wonderful life of a girl like me

[clarkgablekiss.livejournal.com]

ello,

i just want to tell my story because i know its just a road bump that WE ALL Face, but it helps to write it out so i dont let the feelings bubble inside of me cause im realy good at faking happieness and bottle-ing up feelings:

i am a trans-girl, i like other girls alot, most other girls just see me as gay, or a just plain boy, heres where my problem comes to a head, i just had a girlfriend, for a day, i know sounds so elementary school like, but its the painful truth. this girl, knew that i was 'gay', and 'that i wanted to be a girl' she knew this upfrount, and i have loved this girl for years, years onto of years...i still love her.

anyways,

she called me today, saying that she was confused about me, and how i want to be a girl because, she was bi-sexual at one time, but she realized that she doesnt want to be in a relationship with a girl...do you see where this is going?

so due to the fact that she is neather bi, nor gay, being in an relastionship with me, would be hard on her and me, which i agree with, but she has not giving our relationship time to work through those problems.

anyways

its the painful life of being trans, some day some one will love me, and see im beautiful....hopefully...

XOXO
Vanessa Marie