i've real;ised myself but ashemd of being so...

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TS. Transsexual. A person who has a deep, core identity of the gender opposite to their born sex. It's often expressed at an early age, as young as three or four. Transsexuals can't be "cured" except through hormones and surgery and often go through guilt and confusion about their gender identity and try to suppress it, which is inevitably impossible and usually only find peace when they accept who they are and begin their transformation..
i think it's true..i've realised myself that GOD has done joke with me in this way..without transforming to male gender ,i can not live even normal life..happiness is very far to think..but the worst joke that i am in a country where such problem cant even be thought of and if the people here come to know they try to kill such a person like i am..huh..bad joke..the worst joke number 2 that i have not even a single penny and i have my aunts in canada and usa but they are as selfish as they can be..
GOD has done a bad joke..
i hate
may GOD bless u all
regards.