I guess its like when amputees feel a tingling...

I haven't even thought about transgenderism lately, and defintely haven't been dressing in drag or even androgynously, but then there are just moments.. I didn't know where else to share.. certainly not with my boyfriend..

I was doing this lab assignment for Research Methods when next to me sits this young woman that has turned me on for about 2 years. Classic sexy, big lips, big eyes, big tits.. like a cartoon.. the kind of girl who I use for the less romantic lapdance or sororeity girl fantasy. She's never talked to me before, but there she goes, batting her eyelashes, discussing the.. I don't know.. I am assuming she was discussing the lab, it was just hard enough to keep my eyes off her body..

And the whole time I had this sort of amusement.. in highschool it was a sadness but now its just kind of funny to me.. the thought of "youre talking to me like another 'sista' friend.. you have absolutely positively no idea the things I want to be doing to you.. the things I could never physically do but my brain sends signals to do it anyway.. and Jesus.. what you'd think".. Am I the only one amused by what I'm sure is a fairly common situation?

Too bad the only way I'd ever get a girl like that is if we kissed at a party so that she could turn on the men she was REALLY attracted to. Blah.