:: Pride Group Meeting ::

[boiblake.livejournal.com]

I have come to my own conclusion that crappy weather makes me depressed. It makes me think about my life. For the past two days it has been warm and sunny and I have been in the greatest mood. I jus' got home.. first time wearing shorts this year.. from my pride meeting. We did get things accomplished and we are working our way up to small success. Bringing posters of the meanings of queer, gay, fag, faggot, homo, homosexual, transgendered, lesbian & dyke to people's attention. For example... someone says "that car is so gay" and my response.. so your saying that car is homosexual.. and they walk away with no response. I hate how people refer to gay as a bad thing. It makes me sick.

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[underthewire.livejournal.com]

I need a hug.

My prom date just canceled on me. Prom's tomorrow night. I did everything I could to make last minute plans to take her with me, because I didn't want to go without her. Now I have plans for two, tickets for two, only one person (me), and no way to get out of the plans without waisting a lot of money. I called my friend, she's going to see if she can go with me.

I still need hugs though.

I just told the girl I'm in love with to fuck off and die...just in more words and in a meaner way. This isn't the first time she's pulled shit like this on me, it isn't the first time she's fucked me over. She pretty much admitted to me today that she'd lied about wanting to be with me, that she loves me, but when I'd asked her if she always wanted to be with me she just lied to me because she didn't know what else to say. I was already pretty sure she'd lied, but she's never actually told me before that she had.

I want to like die or something. Just not. I'm just upset. Closed a door...fuck I think I even locked it...someone open the window please?

Give me a hug please...anyone?

I guess its like when amputees feel a tingling...

[radiophlegm.livejournal.com]

I haven't even thought about transgenderism lately, and defintely haven't been dressing in drag or even androgynously, but then there are just moments.. I didn't know where else to share.. certainly not with my boyfriend..

I was doing this lab assignment for Research Methods when next to me sits this young woman that has turned me on for about 2 years. Classic sexy, big lips, big eyes, big tits.. like a cartoon.. the kind of girl who I use for the less romantic lapdance or sororeity girl fantasy. She's never talked to me before, but there she goes, batting her eyelashes, discussing the.. I don't know.. I am assuming she was discussing the lab, it was just hard enough to keep my eyes off her body..

And the whole time I had this sort of amusement.. in highschool it was a sadness but now its just kind of funny to me.. the thought of "youre talking to me like another 'sista' friend.. you have absolutely positively no idea the things I want to be doing to you.. the things I could never physically do but my brain sends signals to do it anyway.. and Jesus.. what you'd think".. Am I the only one amused by what I'm sure is a fairly common situation?

Too bad the only way I'd ever get a girl like that is if we kissed at a party so that she could turn on the men she was REALLY attracted to. Blah.