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Well I think i've made a decision. I know I want to go through with the top surgery, so my plan is to do that and then just go from there about anything further. I'm kind of thinking now that I don't even want to be male or female and that I would enjoy being between the gender boxes. So it'll be either just the top surgery or top surgery and T, right now i'm leaning towards just the surgery i think, but i've got time.

Now I need to talk to my parents- any suggestions? I'm afraid that if my mum isn't okay with it I wouldn't be able to go through with anything. I'm doubting that my dad will be okay with it and he won't talk to me again for another 6 months or something but i know he'll get over it....at least i hope he will

I'm also starting to look into doctors so I can approach my parents with at least a loose plan.  I've heard a lot about Bernstein(?) and Fisher but I think they're just too far away from central ny. I've been looking at Dr. Sherman Leis's website at the Transgender Center in Philly, PA and Dr. Daniel Medalie in Cleveland...anyone heard of them? Dr. Leis seems rather pricey- but i like the idea of the Transgender Center....and he actually replied to an email inquirey i sent instead of an automatic computer thing haha.

oh and a HUGE thanks to everyone who responded to my last entry with support and advice, i would still be severely freaking out if it wasn't for the amazing response I got from all of you :oD