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I am slowly starting to acknowledge my feminine side and have been very gradual in doing things to make me more feminine. Money is definitely an issue right now, but there are small things that I enjoy doing like getting nice earrings, using polish on my nails, and shaving for the time being. I have done a LOT of research and this site is one of the best for support and advice that I have ever seen. My question that I am wondering about because it is sort of tickling the back of my mind is how can I gradually out myself. I was amazed at a group session that I went to last night (I belong to a 12 step program for drinking) with no comments about my earrings. I myself believe in wicca/ paganism since I get tired of being told that my issues are wrong and it is where I am at right now. So, I wore my pentacle earrings and actually was able to feel accepted and a part of the group. Now, I have been going somewhat stealth by only shaving to my knees, leaving my armpits and wearing socks and shoes so that people can't see my nails. I don't know when I should really out myself and I don't feel me dressing the part (even though I have one outfit at the time) would be helpful right now until I can afford a wig. I guess the biggest thing is where do I go from here. I can always feel the difference by wearing certain underclothes and have started to make a practice of actually shaving everywhere because it makes me more feminine. On a final note, there is probably no chance of me relying on insurance because I belong to the VA and I am horribly terrified of coming out in those terms. Thank goodness I have a great social worker that actually supports my sexual orientation (I am gay, but that could be another side effect of the Gender confusion). I just figured I would post this for any sort of suggestions or advice myself since I see that a number of people have remarkable advice. And just so you know, I am a 34 MTF and just starting out slow with crossdressing and awakening myself to what might be down the road.

Hugs,
Stephanie