Telling My Sister I'm Transgendered.

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After two years of living in Georgia as Sarah, I decided it was time to tell someone in my family that I am transgendered. I moved here to hide it from and protect them but I have become more content with the person I am and thought it was time to start telling my family the real reason I moved away.

I choose my older sister to tell first because we always got along growing up and I knew if She did not agree with who I am that she would not tell anyone else and would at least respect my privacy. When we were younger we would always be doing things that our parents would not like but no matter what, we looked out for each other and did our best to protect each other, even today I miss those days and often think of how different it might have been if I was her sister then. But I did still love being her younger brother and looking out for her and her for me, I will never forget those days.

So I decided to take the easy way out and email her, we do not live close to each other so I thought this might be the best way. I sent Her a email but gave her plenty of warning not to read past the first paragraph if she couldn't handle the truth of who her brother was. I told her in brief the truth about my being transgendered. I didn't go into great detail but she got the point. I was so scared and for two days I cried and wished I could take the email back, I thought the worst. I should say that she doesn't have access to a computer everyday, so two days was not really that bad to wait for a response, but it felt like a life time to me. I got home from work Monday to find a email from her. I sat there for what felt like hours afraid to push the read email button. Then before I even had the courage to open it I received a phone call from her. The first thing she said was " I Love You " or at least that was the first thing I remember her saying, as I was kind of shocked to hear her voice.
She went on to say that she even had thoughts about me being trans before but always put them aside. She said she wished I would have told her sooner instead of hiding it all my life. Then She told be that the one thing that has helped her was me telling her awhile back when She was having problems that, " We only live once and we all are getting older and that we need to live our own lives before it's to late ". After that we both just started crying, I'm not sure I have the words to describe how happy I was. I sent her two pics of me as Sarah, She said I looked pretty good as a girl, which was a great complement. To be honest I think I look somewhat like her, but she is much better looking. We are going to make plans to get together soon, and I can't wait to see her.

At this time I'm not sure how or when I'm going to tell my other three sisters or my kids for that matter. I know I have to do it soon and thanks to my big sister it might be sooner than later. She has given me the courage to be honest with people about my gender. Although I can not expect the same results,I at least know I have one sister who will love me as Sarah. I know some may say I should have told everyone at once but I needed to test the waters first. I could not have taken rejection from everyone at once. Maybe I should have more faith in the people I love and those that love me? I hope now I have that faith no matter where things go from here.

Tags: athens, brother, crossdresser, friends, georgia, love, sister, transgender