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I love having a supportive mother.

I've been discussing transitioning with her a lot lately. I'm not sure if everyone remembers a few months back where I was unsure where I fit in the gender spectrum. Well, I had been talking to some people and a counsellor (not a therapist, just someone who I pay to listen to me talk and she inserts advice now and then) and we decided that my confusion was based on my not wanting to lose my boyfriend, because he was very much against me transitioning, and this abandonment issue I have and the fear of being alone. At any rate, I decided my relationship with myself was far more important and needed some working on, so my boyfriend of two years and I broke up. I'm doing fine on my own, far better than I expected, and my head is a thousand times clearer than it was. Although my mom still wants to give my ex a good swift kick in the balls.

Anyway. I went in to town with a friend and we popped by my mom's house and we again started discussing transitioning when my mom gave me $100 (she wanted to contribute towards the breast forms I plan on purchasing, to help pass more easily as female).

The conversation sort of went like this:

Mom: Did you get my last e-mail?

Me: What'd it say?

Mom: That while you're in recovery, I'll help take care of you and you can stay here.

Me: Oh yeah, I got that. Well, I've been thinking of getting the actual surgery in Thailand and I'd probably end up staying there the first month. (I had been doing some research and saw a few documentaries that lead me in this direction).

Mom: Oh ok. So will I be staying in a hotel there or the hospital?