Interduction!
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transPuns and silly wordplay!
So! 'allo there, I'm Sora. This isn't a permanent name because I don't want to sound like a Japanophile or rabid Kingdom Hearts fan (though I do like the series, it's because Sora means 'void', the most prominent of the five Japanese elements, which play a big part in my philosophy of combat 'n' such.), but it's a nice placeholder for now at least.
I joined LiveJournal because I'd been told there was a fairly active trans-etc. community, so it's great to meet you all!
Let's see... about me! (This is about 35 lines or so... I guess I don't have to confuse myself with a non-functional cut tag due to a complete lack of skill. xP)
I started off a fairly normal male child... or so they thought.... Er, and my first transgender thought occurred when I was 8 years old. I literally stopped in my tracks in the middle of K-Mart, stared into space for a bit, and came back to myself saying, "Woooooooaaahh..."
For a couple of years I decided that when I grew up I was going to be a girl. But then I moved to a state full of homophobes (and transphobes, but at the time I didn't know the difference). I learned to be homophobic, and I hated anyone who wasn't straight. Including myself!
But I learned a lot about tolerance from my Kempo karate class which I started going to when I was 12 or so. Though I never had the stamina to get through the entire workout there... Once I actually had to sit out from my own belt test because I nearly fainted. But I still love martial arts and they seem to like me as well! Especially since instead of taking smack from bigots, I'll lay-on the hurt! >:3
Eventually at about the age of 15 I remembered my feelings and started to do research on the subject. At 16 I came out to my mom and told her I wanted to be a girl. At about 18 I started slowly transitioning without letting my bigot grandparents know (my bigot father lives elsewhere). I finally found an endocrinologist who isn't completely backward in practice and he was going to help me start estrogen therapy. I silently thanked all my friends for their support as I went in to get a baseline blood test.
It came back showing that I had reeeeally low testosterone levels.
He ordered a few more tests and it turns out I'm intersexed, having an underdeveloped ovary in addition to (somewhat) male anatomy. Apparently the low hormone levels caused the lack of stamina. Hmmm... now that I think about it, I should have asked that health teacher why my fingernails were blue... Maybe I would have found out about this earlier. Probably would have helped my teeth too... Aw, who am I kidding? I drank vinegar. That'd surely do more than low bone density...
So yeah, this occurred a week ago or so, and I'm really trying to figure myself out. I think I'm still a girl... but could those feelings have been pointing to something else all along? Maybe I'm not supposed to be either. But I surely don't want to be a guy. Anyway, that's where I'm at now.
Hopefully the LJ trans community may be able to share some insight.
Well, I'm glad to meet you all!
So! 'allo there, I'm Sora. This isn't a permanent name because I don't want to sound like a Japanophile or rabid Kingdom Hearts fan (though I do like the series, it's because Sora means 'void', the most prominent of the five Japanese elements, which play a big part in my philosophy of combat 'n' such.), but it's a nice placeholder for now at least.
I joined LiveJournal because I'd been told there was a fairly active trans-etc. community, so it's great to meet you all!
Let's see... about me! (This is about 35 lines or so... I guess I don't have to confuse myself with a non-functional cut tag due to a complete lack of skill. xP)
I started off a fairly normal male child... or so they thought.... Er, and my first transgender thought occurred when I was 8 years old. I literally stopped in my tracks in the middle of K-Mart, stared into space for a bit, and came back to myself saying, "Woooooooaaahh..."
For a couple of years I decided that when I grew up I was going to be a girl. But then I moved to a state full of homophobes (and transphobes, but at the time I didn't know the difference). I learned to be homophobic, and I hated anyone who wasn't straight. Including myself!
But I learned a lot about tolerance from my Kempo karate class which I started going to when I was 12 or so. Though I never had the stamina to get through the entire workout there... Once I actually had to sit out from my own belt test because I nearly fainted. But I still love martial arts and they seem to like me as well! Especially since instead of taking smack from bigots, I'll lay-on the hurt! >:3
Eventually at about the age of 15 I remembered my feelings and started to do research on the subject. At 16 I came out to my mom and told her I wanted to be a girl. At about 18 I started slowly transitioning without letting my bigot grandparents know (my bigot father lives elsewhere). I finally found an endocrinologist who isn't completely backward in practice and he was going to help me start estrogen therapy. I silently thanked all my friends for their support as I went in to get a baseline blood test.
It came back showing that I had reeeeally low testosterone levels.
He ordered a few more tests and it turns out I'm intersexed, having an underdeveloped ovary in addition to (somewhat) male anatomy. Apparently the low hormone levels caused the lack of stamina. Hmmm... now that I think about it, I should have asked that health teacher why my fingernails were blue... Maybe I would have found out about this earlier. Probably would have helped my teeth too... Aw, who am I kidding? I drank vinegar. That'd surely do more than low bone density...
So yeah, this occurred a week ago or so, and I'm really trying to figure myself out. I think I'm still a girl... but could those feelings have been pointing to something else all along? Maybe I'm not supposed to be either. But I surely don't want to be a guy. Anyway, that's where I'm at now.
Hopefully the LJ trans community may be able to share some insight.
Well, I'm glad to meet you all!
