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transAs you might find out from my profile, I'm technically MtF but don't identify as trans. I'm past transitioning (which was surprisingly fast for me) but I'm still pre-op because I'm saving money for a good surgeon. I identify as femme, but not as a woman (or a man). I suppose "girl" is the closest think you might call me without it feeling wrong.
Short summary of post: mtf been on hrt for a long time, no sex drive & no function, reduced E slightly, suddenly acquired masculine function and fertility?. Help?
The long version
I've been on HRT for quite a while ( I'm on 50+50mg of spiro, 2mg of finasteride and 300mcg transdermal estradiol acetate + 20mg escitalopram (SSRI) ). When I started HRT (on nothing but 100mcg of transderm. ethinyl estradiol back then) I noticed my sex drive drop but not stop my function altogether. I did have some genital sex for a number of months on an irregular basis but within around 2 weeks of starting HRT I no longer produced any visibly fertile sperm (but watery and clear, pretty much like some genital lubricating gels) and I noticed a slow decline in sexual function over time. Within 2 months I no longer produced any ejaculate matter at all and erections became painful.
Now, the situation two weeks ago was like this: I had pretty much zero masculine sex drive, maintaining a functional erection was almost impossible, I had very dry genital tissue, no ejaculate fluids whatsoever. I tried out reducing my E to 100mcg for a week or so.
I suddenly started getting morning and spontaneous erections, I had got a sex drive that led me to take up masturbation (which had been really rare before this). All of this is pretty much okay since I'm greatful of ANY sexual sensitivity instead of feeling like I have neither genitals, but the thing that scared the heck out of me was the fact that I started getting ejaculate fluids again. First they came with a delay (like they did before they vanished completely), then they started oozing out directly on orgasm and now It even comes with a bit of pressure.
I'm scared I've suddenly become fertile and can't have unprotected sex anymore (which I have been able to do for a long time, since I produced absolutely zero sperm or ejaculate fluids) but I'm very uncomfortable with using a condom and my partner is FtM meaning hormonal contraceptives are not possible. The ejaculate fluids are pretty clear, but not as watery as they once were, so I'm afraid I've started producing semen again.
I did raise my E to 200mcg to see what would happen but at least after a week there has been no change from what I described above..
I'm not sure this thing I'm experiencing should even be biologically possible after long periods of high-dosage HRT (I used to take larger doses).
Help! Do any of you have any experience of stuff like this? Any hints on non-condom non-hormonal contraception that is easy to use? Any DIY way of testing if I produce semen or not?
Short summary of post: mtf been on hrt for a long time, no sex drive & no function, reduced E slightly, suddenly acquired masculine function and fertility?. Help?
The long version
I've been on HRT for quite a while ( I'm on 50+50mg of spiro, 2mg of finasteride and 300mcg transdermal estradiol acetate + 20mg escitalopram (SSRI) ). When I started HRT (on nothing but 100mcg of transderm. ethinyl estradiol back then) I noticed my sex drive drop but not stop my function altogether. I did have some genital sex for a number of months on an irregular basis but within around 2 weeks of starting HRT I no longer produced any visibly fertile sperm (but watery and clear, pretty much like some genital lubricating gels) and I noticed a slow decline in sexual function over time. Within 2 months I no longer produced any ejaculate matter at all and erections became painful.
Now, the situation two weeks ago was like this: I had pretty much zero masculine sex drive, maintaining a functional erection was almost impossible, I had very dry genital tissue, no ejaculate fluids whatsoever. I tried out reducing my E to 100mcg for a week or so.
I suddenly started getting morning and spontaneous erections, I had got a sex drive that led me to take up masturbation (which had been really rare before this). All of this is pretty much okay since I'm greatful of ANY sexual sensitivity instead of feeling like I have neither genitals, but the thing that scared the heck out of me was the fact that I started getting ejaculate fluids again. First they came with a delay (like they did before they vanished completely), then they started oozing out directly on orgasm and now It even comes with a bit of pressure.
I'm scared I've suddenly become fertile and can't have unprotected sex anymore (which I have been able to do for a long time, since I produced absolutely zero sperm or ejaculate fluids) but I'm very uncomfortable with using a condom and my partner is FtM meaning hormonal contraceptives are not possible. The ejaculate fluids are pretty clear, but not as watery as they once were, so I'm afraid I've started producing semen again.
I did raise my E to 200mcg to see what would happen but at least after a week there has been no change from what I described above..
I'm not sure this thing I'm experiencing should even be biologically possible after long periods of high-dosage HRT (I used to take larger doses).
Help! Do any of you have any experience of stuff like this? Any hints on non-condom non-hormonal contraception that is easy to use? Any DIY way of testing if I produce semen or not?