Transition to be happy?

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One of my friends the other day asked me "So are you transitioning to be happier?" This actually made me think because transition has not made me happier, at least not yet. It has made me much happier with myself but I don't think it made me happier as a person since I deal with a lot more crap now compared to when I started to transition. Not to mention the money I have spent on transition would have meant a much easier life if I was not trans. But the one thing I have gained is I actually feel like I'm alive now. Before everything felt like I was sleepwalking through life. So no, transition has not made me happier, but it has given life to me.

I tried to explain this to my friend and a therapist once but neither one really understood. So I am wondering does this make sense to anyone here?