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I really hope that you don't mind all this. I seem to have become a regular visitor here and I feel kind of guilty about it. But I do have some questions today, again! I just need to "talk" to my peers!

I got a letter today from the gender clinic. It's actually a copy of a letter sent to my GP regarding my treatment at the Gender Identity Clinic!
It expresses concerns that I still live certain parts of my life with male markers.  If you don't mind I'll give you a blow by blow!

I saw the above named in the Gender Identity Clinic on 6th September 2010 where he presented in a clearly female role but as he has not yet changed his name a male pronoun will continue to be used. It is significant also that he continues to present in a male role when visiting his mother because he says he doesn't want to give her a harder time then she has already had in life on his account

He continues to be employed as a relief school meals kitchen assistant and is employed in his male name and with a male payslip and essentially in a male role. The sexual side of his life continues with a largely submissive role.

At this stage there has been some diagnostic shift in that I would contemplate secondary transsexualism but problems still loom large. I wouldn't contemplate any kind of hormone treatment for this patient until there has been a clear change to a permanent female role which would include visits to this patient's mother. Employment in a female role would also be something which would leave me feeling very much happier. In addition to this there is also the possibility that treatment with oestrogens, suppressing libido as it does, would remove any sexual motivation behind any desire to seek a gender role, this risk has been intimated to the patient.

OK, thank you for reading this. I posted the contents of this personal letter so you could understand the context in which they were addressed! Since this letter, I have changed my name and gone back to work under my new name and presenting as best as I can as female whilst there. Because it's a kitchen I can't wear make-up! Work has been fabulous though!!
Name changes in all the important places is under way! Life has been good! Apart from the landlord thing but you know that already!

Any like I said, I have questions!

1. What is secondary transsexualism? That had me confused!
2. What on earth has my sex drive got to do with things? I told him that I have no sex drive as it is!!

In other news, my Mother is most upset with this letter as she feels that the Dr in question, a noted a*******, is using her as emotional blackmail. I've not presented to my mother in a complete role as I don't want to force it on my Mum to harshly! She is coming to terms with the whole thing in her own time and to me I am comfortable with that! And the whole thing with my landlord is forcing her to accept things even more and I feel really bad about that as it is!!