me(as promised^^)

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okay ive been meaning to do this, i usually let ppl ask me things cause im shy about things,ive always been, especially concerning me,. i am and have always been a "nerd" i guess u cud say^^. i love anime, and i love to cosplay.i consider myself a furry too XD. i just turned 18 a month ago, i got all hyped and excited cause i am considered an adult kinda:3. I came out as being transgender a few months ago, i just felt like i was ready to talk about it at this age, now even though my mom disagrees, not much she can say because im all grown up. i came into realization like age 11 that oh...im a girl...,to be honest i never considered myself a female and never "felt" that way i guess u could say, when i was younger all my guy friends treated me like them, and my female friends treated me like a boy,but my mom would always doll me up, i thought  guys did wear skirts and dresses sometime(i was veeeery young at this time) but around like age 9 i didnt want to wear those things or do those things anymore, it never quite fit to me. seeing me in my cousins room playing with his stuff while the rest of my female cousins do....something, was kinda odd to my parents, but my dad, he let me be me, my first toy was this really cool blue batman toy,..he gave me batman everything,for a while i had the costume. that time i went to church for the costume party i won some candy but they called me batgirl :/.i remember looking like uhwaaaa?. i could have passed when i was younger, looking in the mirror i always saw my dad, other people did too, and my voice without any help from hormones has always been deep.(and im small :D)

now im goin to therapy, i love my therapist, she has really been a big help, shes trying to help me pass and help me help my mom to understand,..which probably wont happen, but she still is my mom,.but im so happy about being able to go through the process,and its so sweet how my psychologist adresses me as nathan(she wrote it on my chart!)and she wants me to start off with getting my fiends more aware about these "changes". and oh! how can i 4get my girlfriend was actually the first person i came out to, friend wise, my dad was first and he just hugged me and said i love you,my girlfriend said i love you too, im glad things are looking up for me so far :3