Depression, Anxiety, and Anger

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I think it's time to clear the air, for myself, anyway. I'm depressed. Almost all the time. I feel disconnected from my body (or parts of it anyway) and am having trouble dealing with it.

When I went to the same counseling center that my wife uses for her bipolar and did the initial interview I discovered that the therapist they wanted me to see was already seeing my wife, which means she cannot work with me. So I've had to go to a different center and now I have to go through the process all over again. It's frustrating. Very frustrating.

And on top of it all, I'm having trouble with the waiting. I feel like I'm stuck at the beginning and am banging my head against a wall.

On a side note, my wife (yes I'm married) is also having some issues with my transition. She even asked me the other day if I could "Try to look good as you are until we can afford your transition."

For some reason this really made me angry. I guess it is because I can afford so little towards my transition, any steps I take forward are extremely important to me.