Documenting a change
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transHi folks,
Just thought I'd post here. It's been literally over 5 years since I used to be a regular member of this community (or livejournal in general), but I'm considering coming back to document a transition from beginning to end.
I suppose I should (re)introduce myself... I'm a pre-op pre-hormone transwoman from the midlands, UK. Where I like, the national health service frowns upon and casts aside gender-dyphoric patients with little to no help. I've lived my life knowing about my defective gender (since I was perhaps 4 years old), and I've spent over 10 years living a relatively public 50/50 life. My friends know me as Sylph or Sylvia, my work colleagues know me as Adam, although many of them are familiar with my other side. Outside of work, I never leave the house looking 'male', I don't find it difficult to walk through town without getting 'outed and shouted' at, but that doesn't go very far to helping me cope with the usual horrific 'transiety' we all suffer from with regards to our bodies. (I'll probably post some pics here in the near future). Luckily, my friends and my brothers do a good job of supporting and accepting me, and my partner is incredibly understanding, encouraging, and loving about the whole thing.
Emotionally, I'm stronger than I've ever been , and I felt a need to post here because this community was, at one dark, lonely time, my only outlet for this difficulty. In fact, I probably owe my life to a few members of this community from half a decade ago, and although I'd be surprised if any of these people in particular still posted here, I feel a huge debt to everyone who has ever posted here. Whether or not you helped me, personally, get to where I am, rest assured that you are helping many like me, like us, with everything you do on here.
I'm posting here not only for a reintroduction, but also because, years ago, a full and thorough documentation by a member here really helped me understand a lot of the transitioning process. I'm now at the place in life I've been hoping for for years, emotionally, physically, and financially able to transition.
I'm wondering though - is there any interest in such a detailed transition journal? I'll probably be keeping one anyway, but if there's an interest, I'll target it a little more at public scrutiny, or even cross-post updates here.
Let me know whether you want to read it, and thanks in advance for your replies. If you just post to say 'hi', I'd be happy to get to know a few of the current crowd. x
~Sylph
Just thought I'd post here. It's been literally over 5 years since I used to be a regular member of this community (or livejournal in general), but I'm considering coming back to document a transition from beginning to end.
I suppose I should (re)introduce myself... I'm a pre-op pre-hormone transwoman from the midlands, UK. Where I like, the national health service frowns upon and casts aside gender-dyphoric patients with little to no help. I've lived my life knowing about my defective gender (since I was perhaps 4 years old), and I've spent over 10 years living a relatively public 50/50 life. My friends know me as Sylph or Sylvia, my work colleagues know me as Adam, although many of them are familiar with my other side. Outside of work, I never leave the house looking 'male', I don't find it difficult to walk through town without getting 'outed and shouted' at, but that doesn't go very far to helping me cope with the usual horrific 'transiety' we all suffer from with regards to our bodies. (I'll probably post some pics here in the near future). Luckily, my friends and my brothers do a good job of supporting and accepting me, and my partner is incredibly understanding, encouraging, and loving about the whole thing.
Emotionally, I'm stronger than I've ever been , and I felt a need to post here because this community was, at one dark, lonely time, my only outlet for this difficulty. In fact, I probably owe my life to a few members of this community from half a decade ago, and although I'd be surprised if any of these people in particular still posted here, I feel a huge debt to everyone who has ever posted here. Whether or not you helped me, personally, get to where I am, rest assured that you are helping many like me, like us, with everything you do on here.
I'm posting here not only for a reintroduction, but also because, years ago, a full and thorough documentation by a member here really helped me understand a lot of the transitioning process. I'm now at the place in life I've been hoping for for years, emotionally, physically, and financially able to transition.
I'm wondering though - is there any interest in such a detailed transition journal? I'll probably be keeping one anyway, but if there's an interest, I'll target it a little more at public scrutiny, or even cross-post updates here.
Let me know whether you want to read it, and thanks in advance for your replies. If you just post to say 'hi', I'd be happy to get to know a few of the current crowd. x
~Sylph