Happy and confused
Jul. 15th, 2003 01:16 pm![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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transI am not sure how to start this but it seems to me that the right place to start this is by telling what happend last Friday night. So last Friday night I had plans to meet up with another tgirl in my area to just hang out. This was the first time that I have ever met up with another girl in my area in person. I was so stoked to finally be able to have a friend who knows that I am transgendered. So I got dressed up (first time out in public since highschool) and went over to her place. I must adimt that I was nervous driving to her place all dressed up as that what if I got pulled over or something. Well nothing like that happend. I made it over to her place ok and she met me outside. We went up stairs and just hung out. We listened to some music and drank a few beers. We were talking about a whole lot of stuff. Mainly about trans-issues and how we relate to them. We both discovered that we pretty much think the same thing on the topics. She is futher along in her transition then I am. To make it clear I am not on hormones yet. Being a law student does not afford me the opportunity and the money to start hormones. Anyway, she just started hormones and I am so happy for her. I so wish I could.
Well the night went on and the beer continued to flow. We soon found ourselves making out on her couch. The thing about this is that for the longest time I have never really considered myself bi. Well I mean I thought I could be bi but I never was in a situation to see if I really was up until then. As the making out continued we found ourselves in her bedroom with more of the making out and clothes coming off. To keep this from getting pornographic I will just say that we ended up having a good time. We then spent the rest of the night just chatting and making plans to go out clubbing next weekend.
Now that I have had the rest of the weekend and Monday to think about it, I am not sure what to think. Am I bi now? I mean I really enjoyed myself and was really turned on by her. I have no problem doing it again but I am not sure if it is because it was with her or because it was with another tgirl like myself. So that is why I am confused.
Well the night went on and the beer continued to flow. We soon found ourselves making out on her couch. The thing about this is that for the longest time I have never really considered myself bi. Well I mean I thought I could be bi but I never was in a situation to see if I really was up until then. As the making out continued we found ourselves in her bedroom with more of the making out and clothes coming off. To keep this from getting pornographic I will just say that we ended up having a good time. We then spent the rest of the night just chatting and making plans to go out clubbing next weekend.
Now that I have had the rest of the weekend and Monday to think about it, I am not sure what to think. Am I bi now? I mean I really enjoyed myself and was really turned on by her. I have no problem doing it again but I am not sure if it is because it was with her or because it was with another tgirl like myself. So that is why I am confused.
