Hump Day (but not in that good way)

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So, it's Wednesday. A heary greeting to all. Just checking in to let everyone know that I'm still alive.

It's just after 1pm and in an hour I'll jump in the shower and get dressed to my counseling session. I have a lot to talk about today. I'm glad that I have a therapist like Lisette. She's very calm with me, which is what I absolutely need. I don't take well to aggression.

So I STILL don't know what's with my after-school job in the Fall. I haven't heard anything. Everyone seems to be on vacation. They wouldn't WAIT to fire someone would they? I mean if someone needed to be fired, they'd do it pretty quick I'd assume, right? If I haven't heard anything by now, things should be ok, right? God I hope so. I sent an email on Monday night straight out asking what the deal was (with much more formality of course) and I'm just pray non-stop that they give me another chance! I hate waiting!

Ok, so I'm going to Michigan on Friday to visit some of the my dad's family. So unless I become inspired (either negatively or positively) to post again before then, don't expect to hear from me before the 25th... I don't think I'll have enough privacy to post from there...

This is gonna be a nice trip but stressful at the same time. Why? Well it'll be nice because I'll get a little break from my mom for a few days (desperately needed because other than a few over-night gatherings with friends, I've seen this woman day in and day out since I moved home from college), also I really like the area of Michigan where my uncle lives...it's very ritzy and modern, it'll be nice to catch up with my uncle (I don't really give a rats ass about most of the other famiyl members out there because they've never really seemed to give a rats ass about me) and lastly it'll be nice because my uncle usually sends me home with several extra 20 dollar bills in my wallet than when I arrived...

There are a few things I'm quite excited about with this trip. First, I enjoy flying. I'm not afraid. Especially with how I've been feeling lately, if the plane crashes...well...no big loss (well, with me not the other people. That would be awful for them).
Second, I'll probably get to ride in my uncles miata, which is fucking rad when the top is down!
Third, I plan on scanning some photo's of my dad and grandmother (both deceased) onto some disks so I can have them. My grandmothers husband has TONS of pictures but since they chronicle his life with my grandmother, he's never gonna let me take any of them to keep so I figure I can scan them at my uncle's house and then give them back before my trip is over.

There is only one thing about this trip that I'm not looking forward to but it's a HUGE thing. I'm gonna have to act completely male. As much as it pains me, there's no way I can be myself, even with my uncle. I'm not gonna cut my hair but I'm gonna have to leave everthing feminine at home. My underwear, make-up, clothes, earrings...everything. I'm even gonna have to go back to "deepening" my voice. I did that all through high school and college in classes and whatnot...brought my voice down to an unnatural pitch and clipped the length of my words. What's that mean? It means I didn't let the ending of my words carry on into that feminine twang...hopefully some of you out there will understand what I mean. Anyway, the only things about me that will be remotely feminine will be my hair (which I can pass off as a fro but not taking a comb to it) and my sneakers (which are women's sneakers (size 7 1/2 for anyone interested). The sneakers are gender neutral in appearance (they're white and blue) so no one should be the wiser. It'll be hard but I'm a pro. I can do it.

Tomorrow I'll go and get some snacks for the flight, as I will NOT subject myself to spending obscene amounts of money in the airport) and I'll do my laundry...

Ok, I guess that's all for now. Take care and please pray for me (or if you're not religious, send out positive energy)!

-mo-