trans | spreading the half japanese love. (Reply)

Hi, my name's Emily-- I'm a 15 year-old girl.. Well, soon to be 16 at the end of the month (thank God...). In any case, all of my life I've been more boy-like than anything. Growing up all my friends were boys, I did boy things, wore boy shoes, and all of that good stuff. Everyone was just convinced that I was a tomboy, and so was I for the most part. But as I've gotten older I've just begun to realize that I'm not like any other girl I know, and that I'm attracted more to girls in a "Hey, I want to date you" kind of way... When I was 12 I came up with the brilliant idea that "Holy fuck-I'm-a-lesbian" and I completely freaked out, did stupid stuff and ended up making out with my best friend on my bed. -cough- ANYWAY!

Now that I'm even older (a whopping 15) I've just recently figured out that I'm not just, like, into girls... And that I just want to be a guy. Realizing this kind of makes me feel relief, because now I know what's really 'wrong' with me. But at the same time it kind of freaks me out. All of my life I've just been so self-hating with the way I look and my personality, but I realize now that it's not just an issue with my weight or my personality or crap in the past, but that I've just been kind of like... Unable to really be who I am inside. So, yeah...

Sorry for spamming up this community with my nonsense. ^__^;;

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