Hi...

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I'm a seventeen year old female lesbian. I don't know how my feelings came about and I can't quite explain it. I don't know when it started but I feel as though I am a man trapped in a woman's body. I'm not even sure it's a phase. However, I do know that I am 100% attracted to girls. I try not to let it bother me though and my everyday life because back in 2004 I went through so much regarding my sexuality as lesbian. I had to go into counselling for several months just to try and cope. During that time I was also cutting, but I don't anymore. I am trying to handle this situation the best I know how. It's hard and I'm looking for support. I can't tell my parents yet, because they don't even accept the fact of me being a lesbian. So why should they automatically come around and accept the fact that I could possibly be a man trapped in a woman's body. Everytime I have heard reports about this on certain talk shows and the news, I would feel out of place because most people realize that they are transgendered at such a young age. My life is already hard enough dealing with close minded parents and all who want me to live a lie. I don't know what to do. I have called a support line in my area anonymously, but it doesn't seem to help much. I am lost and I need to find my way.





Personal
Name: Erica
Age: 17
Sex : Female
Eye Color : Brown
Hair Color: Short Brown w/highlights
Disability: Cerebral Palsy- I walk with two supports called poles and wear a brace on each of my legs.
Religion Spirituality: Pagan Beliefs (Not on a set path)
Sexuality: Lesbian
Location: Pennsylvania
Status: Single
Future Plans: Attend E.U.P. majoring in Elementary Education




Music * Movies * More

Music: All genres and all sorts of music.
Favorite Songs at the Moment :

1.Andrea Bocelli w/ Sarah Brightman: There For Me
2. Christina Milian: Highway
3. Rhianna: Pon De Replay
4. Avenge Sevenfold: Bat Country
5. Mariah Carey: We Belong Together
6. Mariah Carey: It’s Like That
7. Papa Roach: Scars
8. System of A Down: B.Y.O.B
9. System of A Down: Boom
10. Kelly Clarkson: Behind These Hazel Eyes



Movies:

1.Shrek:
2.Shrek 2 :
3.Meet the Parents:
4.Meet the Fockers
5.American Beauty
6.All Over Me
7.Lost and Delirious
8. But, I’m A Cheerleader
9. Shark Tale
10. Spider Man



Books
1. Deliver Us From Evie
2. The Da Vinci Code
3. Flowers In The Attic
4. Seeds of Yesterday
5. Garden Of Shadows
6. If There Be Thorns
7. Petals on The Wind
8. Forbidden
9. The Notebook
10. The Lost Boy
11. A Child Called It
12. A Man Named Dave



Television Shows & Networks
1. Montel Williams
2. Maury Povich
3. Inside Edition
4. ABC World News Tonight
5. Good Morning America
6. Full House
7. Trading Spouses
8. Tripping the Rift
9. Family Guy
10. The Simpsons
11. American Dad
12. Queer As Folk
13. The L Word
14. MTV
15. MTV2
16. VH1
17. Sci-Fi



Actors * Actresses

1. Angelina Jolie
2. Jennifer Aniston
3. Jennifer Garner
4. Eva Longoria
5. Adam Sandler



This * That * Both * Neither

1. Liberal or Conservative: Liberal
2. Democrat or Republican: Democrat
3. Religious or Spiritual: Spiritual
4. Free Thinker or Conformist: Free Thinker
5. Mainstream or Individual: Individual
6. Kinky or Romantic: Both
7. Ellen or Melissa: Both
8. Butch or Femme: Both
9. Roses or Tulips: Roses
10. Dark Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Both
11. Candle Light or Moon Light: Both
12. Pepsi or Coke: Coke
13. Pepsi or Coke Products: Both
14. Monotheist or Polytheist: Polytheist
15. Math or Science: Neither
16. English or Music: Both
17. George W. Bush or John Kerry: John Kerry
18. McDonalds or Burger King: McDonald’s
19. Chips or Pretzels: Chips
20. Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
21. Strawberry or Vanilla: Strawberry
22. Peaches or Strawberries: Strawberries
23. Wine or Beer: Both
24. Love or Money: Love
25. Masculine or Feminine: Masculine
26. Erotic literature or Porn: Erotic Literature
27. High School or College: College
28. Marilyn Monroe or Pamela Anderson: Marilyn Monroe
29. Angelina Jolie or Jennifer Garner: Angelina Jolie
30. Xtina or Britney: Xtina
31. Labels or Self: Self
32. Right or Left: Left (politically speaking)
33. Sports or Music: Sports



Likes
1. Democrats
2. Liberals
3. Pagans
4. Girls
5. Individuals
6. People who can be themselves
7. People who don’t persecute others for what they believe
8. Roses
9. Romance
10. Love
11. Nature
12. Passion
13. Science Fiction
14. People who know that they’re not perfect
15. Cirque Du Soleil
16. Politics
17. Law
18. Psychology
19. Gay Pride
20. Human Rights Campaign
21. Freedom
22. Religion and Philosophy
23. Bisexual Pride
24. Transgendered Pride
25. Blue Collar Comedy
26. Chatting Online
27. Wicca
28. Writing
29. Singing
30. Larry the Cable Guy
31. Jeff Foxworthy
32. Bill Envgull
33. Playing Piano
34. Massages
35. Hot Tubs
36. Jacuzzis
37. Blogging
38. Real People
39. Non-Organized Religions
40. Non-Fakes
41. Animals
42. Individuality
43. New Age
44. Erotica
45. Energy Music



Dislikes
1. George W. Bush
2. Dick Cheney
3. Conservatives

4. The Radical Right
5. The Religious Right
6. Christian Extremists
7. Fundamentalists
8. People who shove their beliefs, morals and values down the throats of others
9. Homophobes
10. Republicans
11. People Who can’t be themselves
12. Smokers
13. Domestic Violence
14. Annoying People
15. Ignorant People
16. Close Minded People