trans | Some Questions (Reply)

Introduction and some hormones questions

Hello, just going to be a question about hormones, though first I guess an introduction would be good.

My name is James/Jamie (depending on mood). I’m a young (twenty-one) philosophy student in South England. I guess I was raised without particularly noticeable gender barriers, I was raised to just be me really and having any sense of masculinity impressed on me wasn’t particularly important to my parents. I went to a working class boy’s school, but being something of a more civilised personality I quickly became averse to the sort of working class masculinity seen in a lot of less prestigious schools, so quickly became alienated from the masculinity within the culture I grew up in.

It’s not that I reject all conceptions and form of masculinity, just the more vulgar and barbaric, equally I wouldn’t want to adopt some forms of femininity, I’m no house-wife, and whilst I’m not a dominant personality type, I’m not a complete submissive, I have confidence and I believe people should strive to have strength of character, it’s just that I do it in a somewhat effeminate way.

The concept that my birth sex shouldn’t determine my personality and identity was fairly easy to grip onto, though I didn’t ever cross-dress until I was fifteen, nor did I ever wear much make-up et cetera. However, my music tastes found me in that kind of ‘gothy’ crowd where make-up, effeminacy, cross-dressing, et cetera, was all taken as not being particular special, everyone had seen it before, a number of people rather liked boys that were into such things, so I guess at that age and onwards I was almost encouraged to express myself freely without feeling the need to live up to any male archetype of identity.

I’m still effeminate in identity, not so much that I identify as a woman so much as I don’t identity as a ‘man’. I don’t feel much of a pressing need for sex reassignment surgery, I like the female body more than the male, and if I was to die and get a choice of reincarnation I’d opt for a female body, but the sex of my body isn’t entirely important to me, least not what is between my legs.

But yet it’s easy to say that being young, still kinda slender, and effeminate of appearance. Cross-dressed or not I get mistaken as a woman fairly regular, and everyone tells me I’m rather feminine, but I’m all to aware that as I’ll grow my natural testosterone will lose that sort of youthful androgyny, and that does in some ways worry me.

At the moment my body hair is way more course and annoying than I’d like, I don’t have much in the way of facial hair but what I do have is dark enough to be annoying, I’d gladly opt for electrolysis if only I had that kind of wealth.

Lately I’ve been looking into hormone treatments of various kinds with some discussions with some other people I’m friends with who are trangendered. I wouldn’t mind acquiring a more feminine physique, as I’m told Estrogyn would, but I’m reluctant to make any radical changes with my body.

I read interesting things about testosterone blockers, helps with body and facial hair, will help prevent any chance of male pattern baldness (eek! I like my hair! Been growing it since I was fourteen!), and it would prevent my body getting any more masculine over time.

However, I hear that one needs either testosterone or oestrogen in order to avoid osteoporosis, so I guess it’s not an option to just stop my testostorone and thus freeze my devolopment and leave other choices until later in life? I also hear it reduces sex drive, but that doesn’t bother me too much, I often find my thoughts are about sex too much, and not for any rational reason as I’m really more of the romantic type anyway, and from what I hear about cancer patients that are proscribed testostorone patients a sex drive can be brought back with pills like Viagra anyway upon need. What I do hear is the male organ tends to shrivel and decrease in side, perhaps it’s silly for someone of my gender inclinations to be overly concerned about such things but it’s not something I’m too keen on.

So, I was just wondering on what people’s thoughts were? Are there any options for someone like me? Or should I just accept that my body will change to something I won’t particularly like or feel ‘suits me’ as I get older? Isn’t that true for just about anyone as they get older anyway?

Is it possible to have my testostorone levels lowered but not blocked? Or perhap do you think a low level of Oestrogyn may do the trick instead? I’m kind of content with having a flat chested male body, but I wouldn’t mind a lot of the wieght distrubutions seen on female bodies.

Well, anyway, thanks for reading,

Be well,

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