the end of the week called a week end

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Today well weekend has been very loney for me lately because I am down and tired ... well i am feeling very thirsty and i am craving for nicotine as my cigarretts have run out and i have no money, fortunately i have food to last me for this last week... then after that its starvation week :-(

I am feeling very depreesed and down latyely and very tired so tired i am feeling lame to type i dont know i guese i am ggoing old from all the hurt that has been thrown at me i can only take so much hurt a day what people give me bacause I am transsexual..

I wish i was happy as Dana dancing above ....

another thing which can be depressing is when all my freinds i met were pre ops ... and they all going forward in their transsition and are supported by there parents or they have lkots of money or they are supported by NHS and are moving forward in the transsition and i am am still fighting and trying to get help and no one in my country wants to help me and they do not have NHS here either ...
its very depressing...
i gues i will go and listen to my Dana music and enter dream land where it is fake and bliss. people said they come visit but they never come ... the next week people say they come visit but the never come , and next week is .. people say they come visit but they will NEVER COME :-(

it has been a lonely