I need help or advice or just someone to talk to

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So yeah...I just joined today because I need someone to talk to about it and possibly get some advice. All my life I never really fit in being a girl n such and I seemed to like being boy-ish much better. It always seemed to fit me, who I was. I had some periods were I was starting to like being a girl, but they didn't last too long because in the end, I got uncomfortable, and felt like I was lieing to myself.  I just feel being a guy is really me, but I'm really scared too because I've physicly been a girl my whole life so becoming a guy seems scarey as well.