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transHello everyone, my name's sydney, I'm 19, and I've been cross-dressing for several months.(mostly in my girlfriends house only)
I've gone outside and inside, and lived my life in full cross-identity for about... well since august 12th. Almost a month I guess.
I attempt to be called Sydney and for people to use 'she'. I do not get mad if someone slips and says my male name, and it happens quite frequently. Everyday actually. My girlfriend doesn't slip though. :) She's so nice.
I think it's funny when people ask how my girlfriend is handling this really. It's really funny to me because I don't have the relationship problem that most trannies have. She loves me as a girl, she loves me as a boy. Either way is great. Its fine with me too. I prefer to identify as a lesbian, and we are a lesbian couple. I'm still a technical male though.
I guess I just want some form of support and thought this might be a good group. If you have suggestions for groups any help is great. My only transsexual woman friend has moved away and I get frightened a lot. I'm scared a lot at diners.. italian diners...
But what I deal with equally to fear, or maybe even MORE than fear.. is RAGE!!!!
I may be a pretty girl mostly all the time and I apear very feminine and small. But I must be cursed with a ton of testosterone, or maybe some crazy mood-swing disorder. who knows? I have anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder, and now I'm assuming the gender-thing-disorder (dysphorialis) lol. I don't see a gender therapist yet, so I'm my emotions are very intense and very HIGH STRUNG. I fear that i will burn out. I'm a drug addict in recovery, this is A LOT OF STRESS ontop of NOT doing drugs.
I'm sorry if this is way too long for a first post, or if its the wrong location for it. I just want to let you know a little about me. :)
thanks,
~sYdney
PS:
If, at one point-in-time my mental health diagnosis was "en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoaffective_disorder"
Would I still be able to receive hormone therapy?
I believe that diagnosis has been erased as of 2008.
I've gone outside and inside, and lived my life in full cross-identity for about... well since august 12th. Almost a month I guess.
I attempt to be called Sydney and for people to use 'she'. I do not get mad if someone slips and says my male name, and it happens quite frequently. Everyday actually. My girlfriend doesn't slip though. :) She's so nice.
I think it's funny when people ask how my girlfriend is handling this really. It's really funny to me because I don't have the relationship problem that most trannies have. She loves me as a girl, she loves me as a boy. Either way is great. Its fine with me too. I prefer to identify as a lesbian, and we are a lesbian couple. I'm still a technical male though.
I guess I just want some form of support and thought this might be a good group. If you have suggestions for groups any help is great. My only transsexual woman friend has moved away and I get frightened a lot. I'm scared a lot at diners.. italian diners...
But what I deal with equally to fear, or maybe even MORE than fear.. is RAGE!!!!
I may be a pretty girl mostly all the time and I apear very feminine and small. But I must be cursed with a ton of testosterone, or maybe some crazy mood-swing disorder. who knows? I have anxiety disorder, borderline personality disorder, and now I'm assuming the gender-thing-disorder (dysphorialis) lol. I don't see a gender therapist yet, so I'm my emotions are very intense and very HIGH STRUNG. I fear that i will burn out. I'm a drug addict in recovery, this is A LOT OF STRESS ontop of NOT doing drugs.
I'm sorry if this is way too long for a first post, or if its the wrong location for it. I just want to let you know a little about me. :)
thanks,
~sYdney
PS:
If, at one point-in-time my mental health diagnosis was "en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoaffective_disorder"
Would I still be able to receive hormone therapy?
I believe that diagnosis has been erased as of 2008.