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transI wore a skirt today for the first time in well over a year and it reminded me of something perhaps counter-intuitive:
I feel the most male when I'm wearing a skirt.
Its long and flowwy and really quite a lovely skirt. However, I think that seeing myself in (traditionally, steriotypically, etc.) "female" clothing just seems to drive the feeling home of "i dont belong in these things.. haha! Im fooling them all!! If I took this silly skirt off theyd all see that I'm... oh WAIT..."
On the contrary, one of the reasons I stopped dressing in drag is because it made me feel worse about my physical body. Being in clothes made for men just kept bringing out all of the many, many physical traits that were quite feminine. I felt like a round beg that could hobble along feeling square until I tried sliding into a square hole, to be perfectly simplistic and trite. At least I can have that feeling of "oh, well I just look like a girl because im in girls clothes" if Im not trying to look like a man. (On a sidenote, however, I usually dress fairly bland.. and that makes me feel comfortable.. no one looks at me, then I dont have to think about it)
This isnt really a complaint so much as a point of interest - I think that 'laymen' consider transgendered people to be synonymous (sp?) with transvestits - we get our jollies from dressing like the opposite sex. Really though, I think its safe to say that we'd get more jollies from just having people think of us the way we think of ourselves, and sometimes certain clothes help to further that.
Maybe I should start dressing in this ridiculous skirt more. Then I can continue to look in the mirror and think "well of course I look female - I'm in drag!"
I feel the most male when I'm wearing a skirt.
Its long and flowwy and really quite a lovely skirt. However, I think that seeing myself in (traditionally, steriotypically, etc.) "female" clothing just seems to drive the feeling home of "i dont belong in these things.. haha! Im fooling them all!! If I took this silly skirt off theyd all see that I'm... oh WAIT..."
On the contrary, one of the reasons I stopped dressing in drag is because it made me feel worse about my physical body. Being in clothes made for men just kept bringing out all of the many, many physical traits that were quite feminine. I felt like a round beg that could hobble along feeling square until I tried sliding into a square hole, to be perfectly simplistic and trite. At least I can have that feeling of "oh, well I just look like a girl because im in girls clothes" if Im not trying to look like a man. (On a sidenote, however, I usually dress fairly bland.. and that makes me feel comfortable.. no one looks at me, then I dont have to think about it)
This isnt really a complaint so much as a point of interest - I think that 'laymen' consider transgendered people to be synonymous (sp?) with transvestits - we get our jollies from dressing like the opposite sex. Really though, I think its safe to say that we'd get more jollies from just having people think of us the way we think of ourselves, and sometimes certain clothes help to further that.
Maybe I should start dressing in this ridiculous skirt more. Then I can continue to look in the mirror and think "well of course I look female - I'm in drag!"