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transGood grief. That's what my mom said to me when I told her about my trans feelings today. My sister is a nut case so that much was true. I thought this was a good time where I could use that I haven't talked to her for awhile due to being at TSC this weekend. Well it all came out. I opened with wanting to have chest surgery, and she of couse thought this was crazy. I said I'd gone up there to find out more about people being born female and not ever really feeling that way and finding out what they could do about it.
Conversation went from bad to worse when she asked where the surgeon was and I said San Francisco (Brownstien) and she says "of couse where they do all that sorta stuff at". She then attacked why Christy was ok with this by saying that it was just so she could be sceen as a hetro. Which brought our the whole "mom I'm gay" thing to the table. I hadn't said the words to her but I THOUGHT she knew. My grandma had asked me, and so I knew my aunt knew and so with the ques my mom had been giving me I thought she knew 100%. But today she claims that she didn't until "her eyes were opened when we moved".
So then she says "that's why you moved isn't it, so you could just do this and no one know". And she thought that all my new pals down here where tans as well. I had to set her straight about so much of this. I moved to be around other gay women and have friends that were my age and to go camping and to yes get out from Christy's parents some. Me moving had nothing to do with my trans issues. In fact it did nothing more than take me further away from a large city where they're be more doctors and therapist.
OS yeah I hit my mom with "I'm gay" and "I'm trans" in the same conversation. I don't think it went horrible. I think she has some bad stereotypes of trans MTF in her head clouding her mind. I think my cousin's bad gay drugging lifestyle has put an extra bad light on me being gay much less what else. And when we talked about being gay having a genetic link she suggested that her mother only had three kids and those three kids my aunt and no kids, and my uncle only had one who is gay, and she has one now and who knows about that nut job sister of mine. She then said she should have Shelly fixed so she can't pass it down.
She never once acknowledged any of my examples of me being more male in my early years. I told her many occasions that she herself has talked about and she never spoke or commented on any of it.
I know it's so much for her to process in one sitting. But we need with her thinking this is all hormone related and if I'd just go get them checked... We I don't know but I really think if I'd come back and tell her that I have some unusual level of T in my body she'd accept this more. Who knows.
So we talked about her house renovations after all this and she went back to talking to me like she always dose. I know she was still upset after we hung up cause my sister gets online and ask when she's all fired up about. So I'll keep ya all posted on what happens with this.
Conversation went from bad to worse when she asked where the surgeon was and I said San Francisco (Brownstien) and she says "of couse where they do all that sorta stuff at". She then attacked why Christy was ok with this by saying that it was just so she could be sceen as a hetro. Which brought our the whole "mom I'm gay" thing to the table. I hadn't said the words to her but I THOUGHT she knew. My grandma had asked me, and so I knew my aunt knew and so with the ques my mom had been giving me I thought she knew 100%. But today she claims that she didn't until "her eyes were opened when we moved".
So then she says "that's why you moved isn't it, so you could just do this and no one know". And she thought that all my new pals down here where tans as well. I had to set her straight about so much of this. I moved to be around other gay women and have friends that were my age and to go camping and to yes get out from Christy's parents some. Me moving had nothing to do with my trans issues. In fact it did nothing more than take me further away from a large city where they're be more doctors and therapist.
OS yeah I hit my mom with "I'm gay" and "I'm trans" in the same conversation. I don't think it went horrible. I think she has some bad stereotypes of trans MTF in her head clouding her mind. I think my cousin's bad gay drugging lifestyle has put an extra bad light on me being gay much less what else. And when we talked about being gay having a genetic link she suggested that her mother only had three kids and those three kids my aunt and no kids, and my uncle only had one who is gay, and she has one now and who knows about that nut job sister of mine. She then said she should have Shelly fixed so she can't pass it down.
She never once acknowledged any of my examples of me being more male in my early years. I told her many occasions that she herself has talked about and she never spoke or commented on any of it.
I know it's so much for her to process in one sitting. But we need with her thinking this is all hormone related and if I'd just go get them checked... We I don't know but I really think if I'd come back and tell her that I have some unusual level of T in my body she'd accept this more. Who knows.
So we talked about her house renovations after all this and she went back to talking to me like she always dose. I know she was still upset after we hung up cause my sister gets online and ask when she's all fired up about. So I'll keep ya all posted on what happens with this.