Dysphoria :/
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transI don't have a question or anything, I just really need some support right now.
Recently I've been feeling quite confident about myself, increasingly since I've started social transition. But I still look like a girl. So much so and it's killing my spirit.
I've had long hair for years now because I'm a metalhead and I've always wanted to stay true to that side of me so I was stubborn about cutting my hair. But just now I was feeling so distressed that I cut a huge chunk out of my hair and I just look and feel so ridiculous. :(
I've made an appointment with a stylist to get it cut really short. But now I feel like a sell out and I'm terrified I'll still look like a woman. Plus I'm gonna be looking like an idiot until then with my terribly uneven hair.
I just feel so alone right now, and as though there's no light at the end of the tunnel for me.
Recently I've been feeling quite confident about myself, increasingly since I've started social transition. But I still look like a girl. So much so and it's killing my spirit.
I've had long hair for years now because I'm a metalhead and I've always wanted to stay true to that side of me so I was stubborn about cutting my hair. But just now I was feeling so distressed that I cut a huge chunk out of my hair and I just look and feel so ridiculous. :(
I've made an appointment with a stylist to get it cut really short. But now I feel like a sell out and I'm terrified I'll still look like a woman. Plus I'm gonna be looking like an idiot until then with my terribly uneven hair.
I just feel so alone right now, and as though there's no light at the end of the tunnel for me.
