confused...

[chyzar.livejournal.com]

i'm having issues. i can't decide if i'm so drawn to bio-girls in boys' clothing so much because that's what i'm ATTRACTED to, or because it's what i WANT to do myself! i don't get it... gender-bending is sexy, that's for sure...but if i think it's so sexy why can't i see myself dating a trannyboy - or for that matter, anyone else who identifies as a guy? is it that anyone BUT a (self-identified) guy would be ok? but then what about transwomen? oy, i'm so confused. any advice, anyone?