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What can i do to look more MALE ? i mean.. i look androgynous already... but i look like a little boy or a very femme feminine guy.. and a LOT of my STUPID friends still call me 'she' and 'her' in public or in front of me or in front of other ppl, i hate especially when THEY KNOW THAT I AM TRANS. and they STILL call me 'She' & 'Her' .
so my plan is to attempt to look more male before i go on T. cuz before i get on T i will still look all FEmale. but i am feMALE. so whatever. heh.
i was thinking i could eat lots of food and try to gain weight.. but it doesnt work because of my metabolizism (sp?) or whatever. but i want my chest to remain SMALL because i hate having CHEST at all and small is better than huge. i hate hips but i dont think that mine are too bad. i'm short. but i guess that it isn't too bad. i look like a 12 yr old.. thing which hasnt gone thru puberty yet... lol..
i just wish my friends and stuff would just at least have the respect to stop or quit calling me names i wish to not be called because they are not helping, especially out in public. they dont have to call me anything at all. pretend i am a robot or some shit.
well anyway, i will think of more to say or write later and i will reply/respond to comments.
feel free to comment and give suggestions.