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usefuljack.livejournal.comhow do you walk the walk of genderqueer? i am not an activist by nature. i choose to live my life and make a difference in the ways i can through example - by affecting the people around me (they in turn affecting the people around them...).
as of today, i have little desire to pass as a man, but i have huge problem with passing as a woman. i feel like that's what i'm doing all the time - just passing as one or the other.
when there is no choice, how do you choose to be "other" and live it? is it just a matter of knowing? or is it the degree to which you are out? i guess it falls along a contiuum and there is no rule, but without precedent, i don't even know where to start.
when i came out as a dyke about 7 years ago, i felt more like a woman than i ever had before...somehow being honest about who i loved made me more comfortable in my own body - i saw myself moving and interacting with people in a completely different way and it felt natural for once, not like forced feminity, which i had always dealt myself before. i was taking up just as much room as before, i was just in a different space.
well, that's gone now.
now when i bind i feel myself coming out all over again. what was true for me once is no longer true. i'm okay with changing, but again, i just don't know how to go about the whole thing.
as of today, i have little desire to pass as a man, but i have huge problem with passing as a woman. i feel like that's what i'm doing all the time - just passing as one or the other.
when there is no choice, how do you choose to be "other" and live it? is it just a matter of knowing? or is it the degree to which you are out? i guess it falls along a contiuum and there is no rule, but without precedent, i don't even know where to start.
when i came out as a dyke about 7 years ago, i felt more like a woman than i ever had before...somehow being honest about who i loved made me more comfortable in my own body - i saw myself moving and interacting with people in a completely different way and it felt natural for once, not like forced feminity, which i had always dealt myself before. i was taking up just as much room as before, i was just in a different space.
well, that's gone now.
now when i bind i feel myself coming out all over again. what was true for me once is no longer true. i'm okay with changing, but again, i just don't know how to go about the whole thing.