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nekomimilian.livejournal.comI've been very on and off about wanting to join, let alone post to a tg community and finally decided to just go for it. The worst that can happen is I make myself look very stupid right?
I'm 22, "transgirl" if you will. Pre-op, doubtful I'll ever be able to afford to go all the way. I live in Canada so that makes options limited and expensive.
Currently I do have a job, but haven't said anything about my status to people at work. I have friends that I'm "out" to, but it was actually a condition of friendship that I tell them about it and they not get upset or offended. My parents don't know anything, despite obvious clues left in my room on purpose and by accident.
The first day of work was actually the first day of trying to be "me", as well, so I started by singing to songs in the car(parents car) as I drive to work, started shaving pretty much everywhere, and buying femme(IMO) clothes. I've since developed what I think is a decent female voice... but only if I'm singing.
My friends are a real hit and miss, sometimes they use "she", sometimes they use "he", sometimes they use the short form of my real name, sometimes they use my preferred name. At least the short form of my real name is unisex.
I've never felt comfortable being forced into a male role, and honestly fail at it where it's supposed to be an advantage. It feels so wrong that I back out of the situation and run away.
When I've been presented with an opportunity to be female, wether in reality or online, I always take it. I pass "okay" in real life, because most of my body dimensions are within the average female body dimensions. At work, during the christmas rush, I was indentified as female far more often. Even before I worked there, I was once identified as female in the store.
I'm not on hormones yet, as I'm scared to see a psychiatrist in case they might not have any experience with TG people or might act as gatekeepers. I've seen a psychologist twice, but since he can't prescribe hormones without going through the GP, I'm kinda stuck. The GP I find is very tactless and kinda frightens me.
I only have my sister, my real life friends and one person I know online "in the know". I want to move out of my parents house before I "really" do any irreversable transistioning in case my parents freak out and disown me. I do not have any trans friends (one friend I have in real life has a lot of the "transguy" traits, but that's as close as it gets.)
I like to read peoples stories, and find out the similarities (which is how I discovered "gender identity" and "transsexual" in the first place) along with similarities with my past and present.
The internet is the greatest form of communication there is, I'd probably still be in the closet with no friends if it wasn't for the internet.
I'm 22, "transgirl" if you will. Pre-op, doubtful I'll ever be able to afford to go all the way. I live in Canada so that makes options limited and expensive.
Currently I do have a job, but haven't said anything about my status to people at work. I have friends that I'm "out" to, but it was actually a condition of friendship that I tell them about it and they not get upset or offended. My parents don't know anything, despite obvious clues left in my room on purpose and by accident.
The first day of work was actually the first day of trying to be "me", as well, so I started by singing to songs in the car(parents car) as I drive to work, started shaving pretty much everywhere, and buying femme(IMO) clothes. I've since developed what I think is a decent female voice... but only if I'm singing.
My friends are a real hit and miss, sometimes they use "she", sometimes they use "he", sometimes they use the short form of my real name, sometimes they use my preferred name. At least the short form of my real name is unisex.
I've never felt comfortable being forced into a male role, and honestly fail at it where it's supposed to be an advantage. It feels so wrong that I back out of the situation and run away.
When I've been presented with an opportunity to be female, wether in reality or online, I always take it. I pass "okay" in real life, because most of my body dimensions are within the average female body dimensions. At work, during the christmas rush, I was indentified as female far more often. Even before I worked there, I was once identified as female in the store.
I'm not on hormones yet, as I'm scared to see a psychiatrist in case they might not have any experience with TG people or might act as gatekeepers. I've seen a psychologist twice, but since he can't prescribe hormones without going through the GP, I'm kinda stuck. The GP I find is very tactless and kinda frightens me.
I only have my sister, my real life friends and one person I know online "in the know". I want to move out of my parents house before I "really" do any irreversable transistioning in case my parents freak out and disown me. I do not have any trans friends (one friend I have in real life has a lot of the "transguy" traits, but that's as close as it gets.)
I like to read peoples stories, and find out the similarities (which is how I discovered "gender identity" and "transsexual" in the first place) along with similarities with my past and present.
The internet is the greatest form of communication there is, I'd probably still be in the closet with no friends if it wasn't for the internet.