Being single and gender/sexual preference confusion

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Cross posted to several transgender communities

OK, work this one out! I was born female, came out as lesbian at 13 (married briefly at 28 then back to women). OK, I'm now in transition FTM. I'm still attracted to women excusively but not really to heterosexual female born women, and as I'm not going to have lower surgery, most of them would probably have certain problems getting into a relationship with me if they id as straight anyway. More aware of this since I started on testosterone (yes it does do incredible things to some moods, but hasn't really affected my ability to control anger or other emotions I'm familiar with). Now that I'm single, where do I look? Lesbian community don't want to know about MTF's (even though they are women) or FTM's. Real gender/preference confusion? And some people still talk as though sexual preference and gender identity are the same thing! HAH! Hugs, Simon

Letter from my health authority. Opinions please

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cross posted from my personal journal

I got a note from my doctor this morning with a copy of a letter attached. The letter is from the "Assistant Director Of Corporate Development" for the local care trust.

I feel slightly uneasy and mildly insulted by it, but I can't place why.

( the letter )

Bwah

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Got dismissed from school today. Catching something. I don't know, but I think everyones immune system is fucked up one way or another during winter. Went shopping with mom. Ah, dayquil. Have to go to the doctor later, yay. Yesterday kind of frustrated me. School, and the finals coming up. Argh.
NBAGLY was sorta okay. Just a person who I'll call "John" kept calling me a girl, such a little sissy, etc. I have nothing against him, but no matter how many times I explain that I'm a FTM, and I like to refer myself as "Dan/Danny/Daniel", he just doesn't get it. Not even the other members do! The coordinators, Rob and Dawn, they're cool and they even changed the signup/notification form. I was actually kinda upset they didn't have "transgender" listed down first. I kept quiet mostly. Yesterday was the safe-sex talk, and a lot of the kids had questions. I already knew most of the answers, and joked about how you can break a penis (Not pretty, my aunt accidently broke her fiancee's penis). But what pissed me off the most was when "John" tried to explain how his cousin is bi, but she doesn't think it's cheating to have a boyfriend and a girlfriend at the same time. He was using me and D-Kins(A rather young gay-boy) as examples. He kept refering me as the girlfriend. I just am frustrated and disgruntled in having to explain myself. My freshman class understands it for god sakes, and John is a senior. Some girl in my talent search(it's like a collge-prep course. They just started letting freshman's in) told Mr.Riding(Coolest teacher ever) that I was inappropriatly touching people. Well, it sort of rules out all my physical contact except when I was giving Grandmaison(Ryan is his real name, but we refer to eachother by our last names) a massage because his neck was way too sore. My friend Jessica, who's also in that class, wants to find out who that is. Lol, we're always pretending to beat eachother up, and make fun of eachother, but when shit happens, we're always by eachother. Funny, huh? I just needed to vent, and thought it'd be cool to post it on Trans(since FTM board is so overrated with the serious-anal types).
Love you all
Dan The Man