trans | Feb. 6th, 2004

Hello all. I am new here. I came across this community by looking at my friends communities. Anyways. I read about the group and though, I need to join. I do have a friend that is F2M. His name is Sean. I met him through my ex girlfriend. Before i even met her, I knew nothing of the Transgender community. So she basically introduced me into the community i guess you can say. She was always talking about Sean this Sean that. I didnt like it at first but i grew to it. My ex girlfriend and I had a good relationship at first. She was telling me things about Sean and the things he was going through. She then asked me if its ok to meet him. I thought yea, that would be nice. One day she was talking with him on the phone and asked if i wanted to say hello. I was like sure. As soon as i heard him say hello, I was shocked. I didnt know what to say didnt know what to think. I wasnt informed that his voice would be as different as it was. I wasnt scared, just of guarded i guess you can say. As our relationship lasted, the more i kind of got interested more into what goes on in their life and just general things. I wasnt going out looking up books or anything, but trying to make some kind of transgender friend. I found my self doing this more when my ex girlfriend and i broke up. I went into a Trans room and made some friends. I told them that i was a lesbian and i was looking to make friends. I would tell my ex about the friends i made and she kind of got annoyed i guess you can say. So I called my ex for her to meet up with me for a drink at the bar for some advice and just to chat in general. I was kind of in a bind about a girl i was dating. Somehow throughout the night from getting advice from her went into throwing awful things into my face. About our relationship, how she didnt want to be with me half way through but stayed anyways. Then she brought up Sean. I mention to her on New Yrs Eve that i was going to go up to the city to meet up with him for him to show me around the city and things. Just a friendly little thing. You know? Well she told me she didnt like the fact i would be going up there to hang out with him. She also knew i asked her to go along bc i know how much she would love to see him. Well she also added how shes freaked out about this whole thing. About me being interested into the community. I have told her time and time again, I am more or less interested how things are done medically and i am impressed how things can be done. For some odd reason she cant get that through her head. You should of saw her face reaction when i told her i watched this show they had on Changing Sexes, both on M2F and F2M.

So I leave you this.. I am stuck on the thought of going up to see Sean for a day to show me around town or not too. Can Someone help me...? Am i do anything wrong? Am i at fault?