Some ranting and raving on my part

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First day of school today. Wasn't as nervous as I thought. But, it was sorta hard, explaining to my friends why I missed half the school year [tried to commit suicide due to the whole trans thing in an eggshell], and explaining that I am a gay guy. Or something of that sort. I dated a girl for about two weeks, left me for some asshole. No real biggy, but I still feel pissed not having someone right here with me, albiet a boy or some cute little boi. I guess the need to be held is strong. By wolfish nature, I tend to be apprehensive with strangers, but with my "pack" [friends], I'm great.
But I must still face this sorta awkward thing being a guy on the inside. I tell the GSA I'm a gay guy, they automatically say, "Well, you're not a GUY yet, so just say your straight, m'kay?" and NBAGLY is getting like that too. Even the advisors are sorta gave a weird look when I said that. But apparently I am offensive to both sides of the fence. Can I smash my head against the desk now?
In better news? School was awesome in general. Great classes, KICK ASS LATIN TEACHER named Mr[Migster(sp?) Oulette], and he's wicked awesome. I want to start a trans group in school..but who'd go? I am pretty certain, at this point, I am the only one conciously knowing I am a transgendered person. In matter of fact, most of the school is bisexual. You'd think someone would hear the T[not Testosterone] word floating about, but no. Health class doesn't cover Transgender topics, though Gay and Bisexual are alright and dandy.
Can I just take a magic anti-Tranny pill and live a normal happy straight-preppy-girl life? Though I'd probably shoot myself either way...