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i'm having a really difficult time coming out to my parents, even though my mother is always making rather trans-positive comments, and seems to suspect something is up with me.

it's at the point now where i just want it out in the open kind of, you know?

i wrote a small note for my teachers asking them to call me 'chris', and to use gender-neutral pronouns when referring to me, and most of them had no problems or questions (with the exception of two 'what do you mean by gender-neutral pronouns?' i just don't want to be called 'she/her'). my homeroom teacher took me aside and suggested i get my name changed at the office, in case some teachers forget. she also commented with 'whatever makes you happy', and asked if my parents knew.

so anyway, i got my name changed within the school. they even got rid of my (girly) middle name. pretty awesome, except it still doesn't tell my parents anything, and i seem to feel girly a lot. maybe it's all the people who know me as female. stealth in high school is really dangerous. bad me.