silly question

[nolimitskater.livejournal.com]

i dont know if this is silly but someone told me that bio boys of post pubecent age dont have peachfuzz so i guess im trying to decide if i should shave off what little of a facial hair i have.. ???

does anyone else do this?

Looking for some input

[alicefanclub.livejournal.com]

I just finished reading the book Trans-Sister Radio by Chris Bohjalian, and it left me kinda peeved and with a few questions. For those of you planning to read it, there are spoilers behind the cut.

( Aren't these just stereotypes? )

Spironolactone

[ottermama.livejournal.com]

Heya gang.

About a 3-4 months ago, I was put on Spironolactone, and haven't really been experiencing many of the side effects people say is a result of it, such as being dehydrated, losing sex drive, being more tired than usual, needing to use the washroom a lot more, and a few other things I can't remember. Suffice it to say I've been feeling pretty normal despite being on it. Any of you have any other experiences with Spiro or an anti-androgen of this nature that you could compare with? I'm not sure if it's just because it's only been 3 months and I should suddenly expect a whole bunch of weirdness or if it's just my body coping well. Thoughts?

Sums things up nicely

[chooseareality.livejournal.com]

"It's like you leave for vacation, and as soon as the plane takes off, you think to yourself, 'Did I turn the oven off?' .... and though you know you must have, because you always do, the thought just won't leave you, you can't shake it ..... you think about the house burning down, losing all of your personal items, wait .... you have a gas stove ...... it could blow up ...... and hurt others .......... oh sure .... the feeling with leave you at times, and you know if the house caught on fire, eventually someone would notice and it would be put out ..... so you enjoy your vacation for a bit .... but at least a few times a day .... you'll get this incredibly anxious feeling ..... "Did I leave the oven on?" ..... and even after you work your way through the rationalizations again ....... and you intellectually convince yourself you have nothing to worry about, there's nothing wrong ...... you will still find yourself faced with having that anxious feeling, it just won't leave you, and it continues to interfere daily with the enjoyment of your vacation."


I borrowed this from http://www.amynews.com/Blog/archives/000036.html because I thought it captures how I feel about myself perfectly. She goes on to explain how gender conflict is like having a scratch that you can do anything to fix except scratch it. Wow, I couldn't think of a better way of putting my head into words.

I know that many girls face depression so severe that the choice is to change or to cease to exist. I am not quite that bad off. For some reason I am able to distract my thoughts or approach it differently so that I can live with what I have.

A few years ago I came too close to the cease to exist option. That is when I figured out who I really was and how I really felt and that is was ok to feel like I did. I think it was more than my gender conflict that put me into that depression. I was recently divorced, drinking to much, fighting for time with my daughter, and alone.

Now my life is great. I don't drink any more. I am still fighting for time with my daughter, but I am wining. I am remarried and the divorce is just something in my past now.

So now I am just left with an itch that I can't scratch. I am lying a little here. I've started to cheat a little and put little x's aross the spot to see if that helps.