pseudo friendship...

[jessynecessity.livejournal.com]

I was burned today by a TS friend of mine who I trust her opinion. We were talking about general TS stuff and I mentioned that my dream was to get married, and adopt some kids. My "friend" said, and I quote, "It will never happen. Nobody will marry you, because nobody wants people like us"

I cried bitterly for like 2 hours... why would she SAY that to me??? I HAD to believe it was true, cuz she ALWAYS tells me things strait, hurtfull or not. I finally decided to re-enlist in the U.S. Army. Its been a loonnnngggggg time since I have considered quitting transition, but I actually MEANT it this time! when she called me "she" or "Jessica" I corrected her, and made her call me "he" or "Jeremy"... I got home, ran inside, changed into the most boyish clothes I have (15 months fulltime 24/7 as a female doesn't give me much option to look male) took off my makeup, and let my hair down. I still look and sound like a girl... alot.

I don't feel better about it now that I am in boy mode for the first time in way over a year... so now I don't know WHAT to do! It seems I am doomed, whoever I am... male or female! *ugh* either family hates me, and I never get to make a NEW family, OR i pretend to be someone else, and hate myself as much as they do now... freakin crazy!

advice anyone?

Resources for my parents

[erinrising.livejournal.com]

Hello, everyone. I'm Erin, a twenty-three-year-old transwoman in the process of coming out to her family and friends. Over the last ten months I've been very slowly telling my friends and building a network of support while meanwhile working up my courage and informing myself and sorting out my thoughts and life. So far a few more than a dozen people know I'm trans, including my sister. Since I'm not yet out to most of the people in my life, I've obviously not done much to pursue transition, though I suspect I'll be looking into transitioning soon. If you're wondering, my current plan is to pursue therapy and hormones and live full-time as a woman. I probably won't undergo SRS, at least any time soon.

After my months of preparation, I'm finally on the verge of coming out to everyone. I'm planning to tell my parents this week, and I'm planning to come out in my primary journal a few days after that (erinrising is my secondary journal, just to talk about transsexualism and everything that's managed to get tangled up in it). I know basically how I'm going to approach telling them, so I'm not really asking for advice on that (though, of course, I'll gladly take any you have for me). My question is... can you suggest any resources for me to give to them? I can inform them about a lot, but I think it's best to give them some other resources, too, for everything I don't know and everything they're afraid to ask and everything that would be best backed up by someone else.

( Some details about my parents, lest they be helpful. )

Thanks in advance for any help you can give me.

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[agathodaiman.livejournal.com]

has anyone used any at-home electrolysis machines...and if so...which are best? thanks.

Transgender vs Bigender?

[ottermama.livejournal.com]

After another long long conversation with a friend, she got my head thinking... being intersexed, she said, only applies to physicality and that she thinks that because I identify as a mix of both binary genders, I should be transgender despite the fact that I identify as what I would call "bi-gendered" or "intergendered" and had been using the word "intersexed" to describe not only my physical sex but my internal gender. She said that it was a misnomer and that transgender better describes it. I don't necessarily agree, but I thought I'd pose the question to a broader and more experienced group of folks... what do you all think?

*HUG*

[jessynecessity.livejournal.com]

I just want to say THANK YOU for all of your advice last nite... it helped put things in perspective for me!!! *hug* THANKS!!!

--Jessica