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Stealth in the Workplace
Jul. 8th, 2005 01:17 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
girlabomination.livejournal.comIt's really disappointing that I should have to write this, however I am coming to realize that I will be in need of being a bit more stealthy in my place of work because my coworkers are beginning to notice my physical transformation (even in guy mode), and uhmmm my Dad who has not directly been told anything, owns the company.
There are obvious things I know i can do... for example not wearing such 'flaming gay' clothing, amd resisting the urge to paint my nails shades of mauve and grow them out and sharp until they can draw blood. Although right now, I feel like I could fairly easily cover my tracks (and god I feel so corrupt doing it) for the time being, but I'm not willing to hault HRT and completely sacrofice all the growing I've done, and wonderful feeling I've experienced just to go back in the closet. I've worked too hard, and I've found too much joy to give it up now.
No less, bills do still need to be paid -- I've gotta eat. Right now I'm thinking to begin by shifting to more masculine clothing... I dread the thought of flannel shirts, but at least baggy clothing and multiple layers I'm hoping will be suffivicient to hide breast development. As for my facial alterations... uhmmmm So far the only comments i've gotten are that I've got a cuter nose, however the changes are significant. Perhaps baseball caps will help? *Gags* Or other similiar acessories? Only wear more masculine glasses ... uhmmm other things... I dunno.
If anyone can help I'd really appreciate it. I really don't want to lose my job, however I don't want to give up my transition either. I'd hoped I'd simply come off as a gay male who won't admit it but... no luck.
Help... please?
There are obvious things I know i can do... for example not wearing such 'flaming gay' clothing, amd resisting the urge to paint my nails shades of mauve and grow them out and sharp until they can draw blood. Although right now, I feel like I could fairly easily cover my tracks (and god I feel so corrupt doing it) for the time being, but I'm not willing to hault HRT and completely sacrofice all the growing I've done, and wonderful feeling I've experienced just to go back in the closet. I've worked too hard, and I've found too much joy to give it up now.
No less, bills do still need to be paid -- I've gotta eat. Right now I'm thinking to begin by shifting to more masculine clothing... I dread the thought of flannel shirts, but at least baggy clothing and multiple layers I'm hoping will be suffivicient to hide breast development. As for my facial alterations... uhmmmm So far the only comments i've gotten are that I've got a cuter nose, however the changes are significant. Perhaps baseball caps will help? *Gags* Or other similiar acessories? Only wear more masculine glasses ... uhmmm other things... I dunno.
If anyone can help I'd really appreciate it. I really don't want to lose my job, however I don't want to give up my transition either. I'd hoped I'd simply come off as a gay male who won't admit it but... no luck.
Help... please?
