God and his mistakes

[fullcontactmuse.livejournal.com]

So the BlogHer excerpt from earlier today in the Transgender community has got me thinking about God, the Goddess, what ever you wish to call the Devine (Bette Midler not withstanding) and mistakes when it comes to our gender. What ever her name was that quoted made the rough statement, and I’m paraphrasing here, “Who are they (we transgendered folk) think we are to presume God made a mistake putting us in the wrong body?”

The more I thought about this on my drive into work, the more I thought she was right in that regards.

Now hold off a second before you lynch me, please let me finish. Yes, she is a severe right winger who doesn’t give one iota about anyone who even thinks about stepping outside of what she considers the societal norm. Now I have heard frequently from friends of mine in the community say something along the lines of, “God/goddess/biology screwed up and put me in the wrong body.” I don’t think it was a mistake you ended up in the wrong body.

In the interests of full disclosure, I am a firm believer in the idea of reincarnation and that every time we live a life, there are lessons that we, as souls, need to learn. This, to me, explains why a good and loving deity would allow a child to die for no apparent reason eighteen months into life; why a good and loving deity would allow for a child to be born with tremendous birth defects; why a good and loving deity would curse someone with gender dysphoria.

Just some random thoughts while looking over the lake, waiting in traffic.

Stealth

[foxxygirltamara.livejournal.com]

How do I go stealth? I mean, I'm still developing and I don't know how well I pass yet but it seems to be so good so far. I have been very selective in who I tell about my trans status. Usually, it's just other trans people or people I know who we share trans friends so I know they're cool. Mainly, though, I'm fairly stealth in RealLife^TM. However, my fear has been on and off that the 'net is going to out me. There are pictuers of me on the 'net and stuff where I am talking about being trans (for example, all my LiveJournal posts and comments on all the communities). How much of a danger is this?

Is it really possible to be stealth or will any cursory background check reveal my name and gender change and, pre-op, my birth certificate and social security card gender (or changes even after I'm post-op)? How much info is floating out there for people to just grab?

I'm going to try to lockdown online as much as possible and probably create a new LJ account. However, I do have the problem that my username is attached to these posts and to my name because I use it for everything (BAD Tamara!). How do I work on assimilation?