Little hep please

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Ok so first off my name is Zac and im 16(17 in 20 days). Im a FtM tranny boi and proud of it. Recently Ive decided to buy a packer but need some help buying it. I have the money(cash) but Ie o way to buy it online or anything(mom wont help). I was wondering if someone could help me out and buy it and Id send whoever the money for it. Thanks in advanced.

The second thng was I wanted to know if there are any packers that you can pack with and use for sex ahat dont require adheasives.

Thanks for the help.

Zac

sorry for the x-post

a girl like me?

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anyone have a download link for this movie? i have been looking for it since it came out, and have yet to find it. (dont have cable so i missed it.)

Last night, i had a dream...

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...no i didnt' find myself in a desert caled cyber land (*sings* I'm forbiden, to produce, milk! in cyber land they only drink, diet coke!). but i did have a dream. A strange dream. About transition. I've never dreamt about transition before. And that was teh sole topic of hte dream. My dreams are almost never so blunt! LOL

the dream started in a group therapy session...yet the room has a vague car shapish to it...like being inside a car...I think. Anyway, there was this packet of paper that we were all workin on, and the first sheet (which was a probably 4x11) we were supposed to write our name and then a picture of what we wanted to be (ourselves as a man/woman) and i laughed to the girl/boy (dont remember his/her gender though when telling the dream so far i've given female pronouns) and said i was going to draw myself as a stick figure! The only other part of the dream i remember is talking to the therapist (a woman i know who is a therapist, but not mine...but someone i've talked to and has given me insights not as a therapist really, but just as a person) and going over the sheets, and there were a bunch of questions i just missed. There was one though, and it was something like "when are you goign full time" and i said/wrote 'by my birthday"


May not seem much, but it seems rather erie to me =0) but also kind of an affirmation as well. Anyway, i'm going back to work...blah. Just thought i'd share while i still remembered!

crossposted to tgirlvalentine, mtf, transgender, ozarks_tg

Breakfast at I-hop....

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...the next great melodrama!

Today was the last day that our current facilitator and her girlfriend would be a regular part of our sunday night trans-group (long name huh? ::grins:: ) as she has taken a job that will have her a few hours away...or so. ONe of our periodic tranditions, was to go "nosh" after the meeting, and Ihop quickly became a favorite (the one on n. kansas expwy). Service was always great and the food was serviceable. Then, we went today. At first things were fine, two of us got there late (as one of my friends is a smoker...evil as the habit is ::grins::, i stayed out to talk with her) and the waitress was already at the table taking a few orders, and took our drink orders. She brought us our drinks. She didn't come to our table again until the food was brought...which was cold. Okay not ICE cold or anything, but luke warm, which isn't want I pay for. I had thought maybe as engrossed as I was in a video our facilitator was showing me on her handheld gaming device (i love the "matrix-ping-pong" video!) that i had somehow missed her. Nope. When she brought us our food, she didn't ask if we needed anything refills, nothing. Then her "boyfriend" came with a friend of his ( i put it in quotes simply b/c i'm making an assumption there). My first thought when i saw him was...wow..he's tall. But then i noticed her talking to him, and looking at us saying, "...over there, no don't look! One of 'em..." and i started laughing. I ind't know what else to do. I sat there for a few minutes tehn promply got up (after making my friend move) and went to speak to the manager. She apologized of course, remade my omlette, and took care of everyones ticket. But *rawr* still a bit angry.

just thought i'd share a trial and tribulation of people who are differnt in a world of people who are scared of anything different.

i'm off to bed...or a bath...*rawr* something. it's time's like this i want my own 6'3 superman to hug me close and let me just rage until i cry... :;sighs:: infp baby...live in a dreamworld.

crossposted to tgirlvalentine, mtf, transgender, ozarks_tg

The winner is...

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In other news: the boat will be the Transcendence. Thanks to Julie T for the inspiration. I think I'll add the tri-corner symbol to it, just to be a little more obvious.

Thanks to everyone for the great ideas.

In still other news, John Money died Friday. May David Reimer rest more peacefully.